i want to live in a state of importance

sometime i think of my family. i love them so much. i dont know what i would do if they were to die. when i think of one of them dying, it just kills my heart in such a deep way. i would feel so much regret. such a deep state of regret i would be in. regret that i didnt love them to my fullest capacity. i want to love my loved ones so much...i just want to be in the moment of loving with them, but i never feel like im able to fully be present in the moment. i want to be present, but i cant help but feel out of the moment. but sometimes when i am living in the moment and they're there, oh man its great...i love that, i just wish it could be like that forever

man, its too bad people have to die. why do people have to die? its not like we did anything wrong?!? we just wanted to live, but something wants to come along and say it musnt be, but why cant it be?!?!? if the force knew how deep my love was i dont think it would take it away. and if it did take it away and knew what it was doing, then ohh....then it must either be that that the force loves us so much, that it makes us suffer so much only to show us a deeper more meaningful loving, or that there is no force in the first place and we are the equivalent of mice in a cage, running around trying to accomplish something in which case i shall become a Charles Bukowski type and freak out about life in an unexpected way

zing!

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- xxx

Quit watmm.

oh hey weed how about you don't post in ETs' threads.

ya. wait. waht?

oh hey essines how about you don't talk to me like that in ET's threads.

ya. wait. waht?

oh hi ET!

i guess when guys get drunk- they have the need to be mean (on the internet_

That's not true. I'm mean sober.

ET I think that without people dying, then the 'human experience' wouldn't be intact. Why would anything matter if we all lived forever?

since when has this "human experience" been so important outside of our desperate attempts to stay alive

  autopilot said:

That's not true. I'm mean sober.

blueberry tea counts as a drug

lol

if we all lived forvever, all conflict would eventually resolve itself

  ET said:

if we all lived forvever, all conflict would eventually resolve itself

nah... more like we would infinitely contribute to its further complication and hence our adaptation to its self-perpetual iterations.

Try to look at the bigger picture ET. I go through similar feelings all the time, the only reassurance I get is that I am part of something bigger than just myself. Think of the people who came before you, that led to this time, this very moment. It makes me feel much more optimistic to think of myself at the crest of this mighty wave of love (ghey!), life and sublime continuation than to think of myself at the mercy of lifes unforgiving laws. We live in an exciting time, your life and your death does have significance, just as the lives of those around you. You need to use the regret and dispair you feel to drive you forward. Overcome it and move forward with hope and conviction.

I feel you bro.

One love.

:sick:

I was shoveling a great deal of snow, lots and lots of it out of the driveway yesterday afternoon. I had this blue shovel and it seemed so obvious that this was shoveling snow, there was the car, and a house, and I was amazed how normal, or perfect it was. Somehow it came to this. Then I realized our brains are designed exactly to assume normality, perfection, and I knew the situation was really fucking unbelievable and bizzare and pointless, but it was impossible to feel this way.

AND I FINISHED THE SHOVELING.

i got paid to shovel restaurants out of bankruptcy during winter time. hah thank goodness i dont work for tips anymore

good post

what the fuck is this shit

You and Monoid would go well together if we merged XLT and WATMM

nonsense & trash = et subforum

  Philip Glass said:

You and Monoid would go well together if we merged XLT and WATMM

ha, is he still kicking around over there?

i wondered whether or not they were the same guy

monoid is the best thing about xlt

  Etch said:

Try to look at the bigger picture ET. I go through similar feelings all the time, the only reassurance I get is that I am part of something bigger than just myself. Think of the people who came before you, that led to this time, this very moment. It makes me feel much more optimistic to think of myself at the crest of this mighty wave of love (ghey!), life and sublime continuation than to think of myself at the mercy of lifes unforgiving laws. We live in an exciting time, your life and your death does have significance, just as the lives of those around you. You need to use the regret and dispair you feel to drive you forward. Overcome it and move forward with hope and conviction.

 

I feel you bro.

 

One love.

 

:sick:

That was really pretty

Out the window with the window.