boring day

whats everyone doing? anything exciting?

dealing with panic attacks 24/7.

it's a sustained freakout where i get progressively sweatier and dizzier, punctuated by moments of relief that are spent with wattem.

anyone have any spare xanax?

going to see fucking Spinal Tap Live! Thats whats up moterfuckers!

... i've had a really boring week though, so this is like going to moon for me, right now...

  ms-dos said:

dealing with panic attacks 24/7.

 

it's a sustained freakout where i get progressively sweatier and dizzier, punctuated by moments of relief that are spent with wattem.

 

anyone have any spare xanax?

Sorry to hear that mate, I had a severe one of those the other night when I got admitted to hospital, It was actually identical to a stroke same symptoms and everything. It's fucking horrible.

David I have done nothing but sleep and post on here, so yeah very exciting.

I didn't know at the time it was an anxiety attack though.

Yeah I'm fucking bored - had a tiring day yesterday and need to be well-rested tomorrow, so i'm taking it easy.

Arrived at Chicago earlier, went grocery shopping and a couple encounters with some rude shoppers.

  abusivegeorge said:

Sorry to hear that mate, I had a severe one of those the other night when I got admitted to hospital, It was actually identical to a stroke same symptoms and everything. It's fucking horrible.

 

David I have done nothing but sleep and post on here, so yeah very exciting.

 

I didn't know at the time it was an anxiety attack though.

prolly thought you were having a heart attack, huh? the ones that come out of nowhere are terrible because you can't plan for them and you're usually in public when they strike. you just have to fall on the ground and wait until you regain control of your body. and there's no way to have one without looking like a total spaz.

i'm having them whenever i try to leave the apartment. i break into a dripping sweat and my head starts spinning. how the hell am i going to take my exams??

hang in there george. this panic attack is dedicated to you.

*hyperventilates*

procrastinating. i should be recording some country music but instead i'm listening to neil young 'trans' and refreshing watmm every 5 seconds lol.

Just finished moving today. It's been a long and tiring day.

Called my mom because of mother's day. Booked a flight. Biked to the comic shop and got Sandman volume 7, plus Invincible volume 6. Bought some groceries and was turned on to the greatness of crushed wheat bread. Someone came by and looked at one of the rooms we need rented by June. Waiting for a friend to call so we can chill on the beach or on the roof. Maybe have a few beers.

Currently listening to project 168.

  ms-dos said:

  abusivegeorge said:

Sorry to hear that mate, I had a severe one of those the other night when I got admitted to hospital, It was actually identical to a stroke same symptoms and everything. It's fucking horrible.

 

David I have done nothing but sleep and post on here, so yeah very exciting.

 

I didn't know at the time it was an anxiety attack though.

 

prolly thought you were having a heart attack, huh? the ones that come out of nowhere are terrible because you can't plan for them and you're usually in public when they strike. you just have to fall on the ground and wait until you regain control of your body. and there's no way to have one without looking like a total spaz.

 

i'm having them whenever i try to leave the apartment. i break into a dripping sweat and my head starts spinning. how the hell am i going to take my exams??

 

hang in there george. this panic attack is dedicated to you.

 

*hyperventilates*

Yea that was exactly it mate, I told LUDD to phone an Ambulance and even the guy on the phone said it could be a stroke. But I'd never had one before, very scarey! Luckily I wasn't in public that must be very embarrasing, fuck having to deal with them on a non-stop basis mate.

Good luck with it man, I feel for you, I couldn't deal with that.

Don't make me laugh. Thats serious shit.

today the forklift tire at work exploded. i've been working all week. hung out with a guy i'd never met and we hit it off pretty well cause we're both faggy diabetics. gonna hang with him and his girlfriend again wednesday. uh, i got nothing tonight, maybe some beers and television. tomorrow i've got fuck all to do, maybe i should find something. and my girlfriend found a spider in out bed about 3 days ago and we had to sleep in the livivng room that night. absolute bullshit.

so yeah, basically nothing. nothing at all.

oh and my landlord mowed the lawn today. he listens to jazz.

  abusivegeorge said:

  ms-dos said:

dealing with panic attacks 24/7.

 

it's a sustained freakout where i get progressively sweatier and dizzier, punctuated by moments of relief that are spent with wattem.

 

anyone have any spare xanax?

 

Sorry to hear that mate, I had a severe one of those the other night when I got admitted to hospital, It was actually identical to a stroke same symptoms and everything. It's fucking horrible.

 

David I have done nothing but sleep and post on here, so yeah very exciting.

 

I didn't know at the time it was an anxiety attack though.

same thing here, out of the blue, never happened before. thankfully some of the people i work with were pretty cool and helped me out, been a bit shaky the last few days about going back to work and being in public in general just due to an added anxiety of having that crop up again.

I worked and then drank some beer, fell asleep and went out to drink some more beer, came home and watched The Golden Compass and now I'm wide awake on wattm

It must be even worse having it out of the blue, I managed to keep myself reasonably calm because I was in withdrawal so was going to expect some sort of continuous shit feeling anyway, not sure what I would have done if i'd felt fine and it hapenned.

saw star trek, mother's day stuffs, cut some amen

  abusivegeorge said:

Yea that was exactly it mate, I told LUDD to phone an Ambulance and even the guy on the phone said it could be a stroke. But I'd never had one before, very scarey! Luckily I wasn't in public that must be very embarrasing, fuck having to deal with them on a non-stop basis mate.

Yep, the first time you're sure that you're going to die. And even the subsequent attacks are sometimes intense enough to make you think you're dying. If it happens again, try to remember that nobody dies from these things. I know it's almost impossible to be rational while you're having an attack, but if you can manage to understand that it's just an anxiety attack, you can start to calm yourself down. Getting control of your breathing is the most important part.

  Dr. Bunsen Honeydew said:

same thing here, out of the blue, never happened before. thankfully some of the people i work with were pretty cool and helped me out, been a bit shaky the last few days about going back to work and being in public in general just due to an added anxiety of having that crop up again.

Hopefully it was just a freak occurrence. Try not to psych yourself up about it, or it'll becomes a vicious cycle like the one I'm in. I'm so worried about freaking out that I end up inducing an attack. Talk to your doctor if it becomes a bigger problem. I'm going to my psychiatrist tomorrow and we're going to tinker with my drug & therapy regimen.

Good luck, man.

Yea I've kind of already programmed my mind that if I have another one in future that I musn't panic or think I'm dying because it will make it worse.

The lady in the ambulance said to me that it can become a vicious cycle, like you said and eventually you just end up passing out, but thats it's not too much to worry about, just too much oxygen getting to the brain.

Good luck with the drug and therapy treatment mate.

there is a rat in the binbag outside my house and I can hear him snuffling around, probably cant get out the poor beggar

i attended 2 shitty mandatory lectures, skipped the 3rd to have incredibly awesome sex with some girl i have no real feelings for at a beautiful lake. great weather too. now i'm going to try to have some sleep after 4 days without. tomorrow is going to be shit, my roommate is moving out (on the topic of panic attacks, she was totally cool when i woke her at 5 am stuttering OMG OMG IVE GOT A HEART ATTACK. it helps to have someone near you who'll be like "uuh.. you most propably don't.. calm down i'll cook some tea) and we gotta sort out all of the paperwork real fast and meet that dickhead landlord.

gn8 watmm

i just got a big bag of peanuts and it's gonna be awesome. i'm listening to weird al and feeling quite alright. on a more exciting note (for me) my brother-in-law-to-be is coming late wednesday/early thursday to check out schooling options and hang out. it's going to be great.

boxing day

  marian said:

i attended 2 shitty mandatory lectures, skipped the 3rd to have incredibly awesome sex with some girl i have no real feelings for

That's one of the best feelings in the world.

(all interspersed with watmm) smoked and drank coffee, had breakfast/lunch, sat in the sun and watched happy people on boats go by, watched arsenal lose, worked out, made roast dinner, vacuumed, did washing up, showered, bought some booze, watched let the right one in,. eating some leftover frittata, bout to go to bed

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I HAGSD ythe WORST FUCKIGN DAYW E VER

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