Apathy

I've fallen victim to it. Too many destroyed hopes. Too many let downs. Too many bullshit situations. Too much bullshit with my family.

I dunno, I don't feel like doing anything these days. Its hard for me to even get up and go for a bike ride, or go to work. Its hard for me to even get out of my house and go see friends. Nothing energizes me and as a result I have no motivation and nothing exciting seems to happen to me anymore.

I can't really figure out how to break the cycle. I know smoking pot makes it way worse but when I try to stop doing that every day I end up in worse pits of boredom, I do the same mundane things over and over. I smoke pot and play video games. Being with friends tends to make me anxious and unhappy unless its just the right person in just the right situation.

I might just be exaggerating unintentionally because I'm in a dumpy mood today, but it really seems like I don't have any good reason to keep pushing when life is never really going to let up. And the worst part is that now I can't have any sort of fun unless I'm drunk or stoned, and like I said if I quit I just get really bummed out, anxious, depressed. I dunno why I'm rambling to you guys about it. Maybe because my own parents don't like to listen. I could tell them why I'm really upset today and why I didn't go to work but instead of listening to my problems and trying to help me they will just freak the fuck out that I skipped work so I have to lie to them.

Also, when I'm really depressed they tell me how upset they feel when I'm sad, which just makes me feel guilty and as a result I don't like to talk to them when I'm down. I don't have alot of friends that I can really open up to when I need to, and even though I have some, I don't want to have come to them every single time I want to talk which is like every couple of days.

Does anybody else feel this? Has anyone else here been through this before? What did you do to break it? How do you find excitement in such a boring, painful, tedious life?

whatev

I'm tempted just to reply with "lol" but seriously, stop smoking weed for a while. Lay off the video games. Get a bike or something, exercise, get outside. Try and eat healthily. Quitting smoking pot for a while will help you to achieve these things.

GOOOOOOOD

  On 8/26/2009 at 9:24 PM, Fred McGriff said:

whatev

lol

  On 8/26/2009 at 9:25 PM, Iain C said:

I'm tempted just to reply with "lol"

and I'm glad you gave some input instead.

I know I need to quit smoking pot mainly, but I need something to replace it with that will bring me happiness when I'm bored. Maybe going to uni next week will help keep my mind occupied.

Killing spree/suicide combo!

My post was a bit muddled, ironically I'm slightly stoned. But too much daily smoking can certainly make you apathetic, unhappy but comfortable enough to fall into a rut. It might not be what's making you depressed but I really doubt it's helping to do anything than put it out of your mind. I really think forcing yourself (at first you may have to force yourself) to do a bit of daily exercise, even if it's just taking a long walk with your headphones, will do wonders for your clarity of thought and your mental state. Give it a try.

  On 8/26/2009 at 9:28 PM, thehauntingsoul said:

  On 8/26/2009 at 9:25 PM, Iain C said:

I'm tempted just to reply with "lol"

 

and I'm glad you gave some input instead.

 

I know I need to quit smoking pot mainly, but I need something to replace it with that will bring me happiness when I'm bored. Maybe going to uni next week will help keep my mind occupied.

One of the best things about me smoking weed is that it makes me far less of a dick on WATMM

  On 8/26/2009 at 9:30 PM, Iain C said:

I really think forcing yourself (at first you may have to force yourself) to do a bit of daily exercise, even if it's just taking a long walk with your headphones, will do wonders for your clarity of thought and your mental state. Give it a try.

Word. Possibly not so coincidentally, I have not been getting much (if any) exercise lately

Bro, you need to not need anything. what we all strive for is meaning. without meaning we really have nothing. There was a book written by a Viennese psychologist/holocaust survivor named viktor frankl called man's search for meaning. check that out, and there is a good interview of him on youtube.

Also check out carl jung's books

Your parents dont listen to you?

Dude, what did you do to piss them off?

  On 8/26/2009 at 9:34 PM, morphis2525 said:

Bro, you need to not need anything. what we all strive for is meaning. without meaning we really have nothing. There was a book written by a Viennese psychologist/holocaust survivor named viktor frankl called man's search for meaning. check that out, and there is a good interview of him on youtube.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9EIxGrIc_6g http://www.youtube.c...jSSftFde5voalso check out carl jung's books.

that link is broken

  On 8/26/2009 at 9:34 PM, Mr Salads said:

Your parents dont listen to you?

 

Dude, what did you do to piss them off?

They will listen but my mom does not understand depression at all and just gets mad at me when I explain the things that are making me upset. My dad will listen but he is sort of the same, and him and my mom don't live together, I live with my mom so if I talk to him about how depressed I am then he will be really upset all the time thinking that I'm never happy which is not really true.

an hero

I edited my posts to fix the links, sorry bout that shit.

  On 8/26/2009 at 9:37 PM, thehauntingsoul said:

  On 8/26/2009 at 9:34 PM, morphis2525 said:

Bro, you need to not need anything. what we all strive for is meaning. without meaning we really have nothing. There was a book written by a Viennese psychologist/holocaust survivor named viktor frankl called man's search for meaning. check that out, and there is a good interview of him on youtube.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9EIxGrIc_6g http://www.youtube.c...jSSftFde5voalso check out carl jung's books.

that link is broken

 

  On 8/26/2009 at 9:34 PM, Mr Salads said:

Your parents dont listen to you?

 

Dude, what did you do to piss them off?

 

They will listen but my mom does not understand depression at all and just gets mad at me when I explain the things that are making me upset. My dad will listen but he is sort of the same, and him and my mom don't live together, I live with my mom so if I talk to him about how depressed I am then he will be really upset all the time thinking that I'm never happy which is not really true.

Why are so many parents fucking deadbeats

Get it together

  On 8/26/2009 at 9:23 PM, thehauntingsoul said:

I've fallen victim to it. Too many destroyed hopes. Too many let downs. Too many bullshit situations. Too much bullshit with my family.

 

I dunno, I don't feel like doing anything these days. Its hard for me to even get up and go for a bike ride, or go to work. Its hard for me to even get out of my house and go see friends. Nothing energizes me and as a result I have no motivation and nothing exciting seems to happen to me anymore.

 

I can't really figure out how to break the cycle. I know smoking pot makes it way worse but when I try to stop doing that every day I end up in worse pits of boredom, I do the same mundane things over and over. I smoke pot and play video games. Being with friends tends to make me anxious and unhappy unless its just the right person in just the right situation.

 

 

I might just be exaggerating unintentionally because I'm in a dumpy mood today, but it really seems like I don't have any good reason to keep pushing when life is never really going to let up. And the worst part is that now I can't have any sort of fun unless I'm drunk or stoned, and like I said if I quit I just get really bummed out, anxious, depressed. I dunno why I'm rambling to you guys about it. Maybe because my own parents don't like to listen. I could tell them why I'm really upset today and why I didn't go to work but instead of listening to my problems and trying to help me they will just freak the fuck out that I skipped work so I have to lie to them.

 

Also, when I'm really depressed they tell me how upset they feel when I'm sad, which just makes me feel guilty and as a result I don't like to talk to them when I'm down. I don't have alot of friends that I can really open up to when I need to, and even though I have some, I don't want to have come to them every single time I want to talk which is like every couple of days.

 

Does anybody else feel this? Has anyone else here been through this before? What did you do to break it? How do you find excitement in such a boring, painful, tedious life?

i feel like this sometimes... it's usually on a Tuesday after a heavy weekend of booze and smoking a lot of weed. i think it's just fucked up serotonin levels from so many depressants over the weekend. i'm usually fine the next day or day after. lately i have only been smoking weed on the weekend and drinking less i actually feel much more lively and positive generally. fuck it, i'm going straight edge.

  On 8/26/2009 at 9:41 PM, morphis2525 said:

I edited my posts to fix the links, sorry bout that shit.

I watched the first one, I'll watch the second soon but I think I'm going out with a friend now. Thanks for that though, excellent philosophy there and I will certainly look into it more.

Strange as it seems, routine exercise does seem to be one of the few consistently effective ways to alleviate depression and apathy to some degree. So if you can get past the apathy enough to do that it will probably help.

i feel like that fairly often, not due to smoking things though. my missus reckons i'm depressed, and that i show the "emotional flatline" symptoms of being on antidepressants (oxymoron much?)

If you have an instrument, take it out of the box and start playing

simple exercise. a scale for example, nothing really advanced.

Just concentrate on the exercise. it empties your brain.

Like Iain said you arereally going to have to force yourself to do something, you will feel more energetic for doing something, if we laid in a bed all our lives, eventually our body would gradually stop working, our legs would be weak, we must do things to keep them going and our bodies will start to produce it's own energy, releasing more serotonin in the brain, enhancing happiness, and thus you will be more mentally apt at wanting to do things.

Trust me.

Well I went for a walk in the forest with my good friend today and she was also in a pretty crummy mood today so we talked about a bunch of shit and now I feel loads better.

I think that besides exercise, social interaction is very key to happiness.

Thanks for the input all, You guys are my brothers

  On 8/26/2009 at 11:59 PM, thehauntingsoul said:

I think that besides exercise, social interaction is very key to happiness.

 

 

Thanks for the input all, You guys are my brothers

Hit the nail on the head mate.

  On 8/26/2009 at 9:23 PM, thehauntingsoul said:

I've fallen victim to it. Too many destroyed hopes. Too many let downs. Too many bullshit situations. Too much bullshit with my family.

 

I dunno, I don't feel like doing anything these days. Its hard for me to even get up and go for a bike ride, or go to work. Its hard for me to even get out of my house and go see friends. Nothing energizes me and as a result I have no motivation and nothing exciting seems to happen to me anymore.

 

I can't really figure out how to break the cycle. I know smoking pot makes it way worse but when I try to stop doing that every day I end up in worse pits of boredom, I do the same mundane things over and over. I smoke pot and play video games. Being with friends tends to make me anxious and unhappy unless its just the right person in just the right situation.

 

 

I might just be exaggerating unintentionally because I'm in a dumpy mood today, but it really seems like I don't have any good reason to keep pushing when life is never really going to let up. And the worst part is that now I can't have any sort of fun unless I'm drunk or stoned, and like I said if I quit I just get really bummed out, anxious, depressed. I dunno why I'm rambling to you guys about it. Maybe because my own parents don't like to listen. I could tell them why I'm really upset today and why I didn't go to work but instead of listening to my problems and trying to help me they will just freak the fuck out that I skipped work so I have to lie to them.

 

Also, when I'm really depressed they tell me how upset they feel when I'm sad, which just makes me feel guilty and as a result I don't like to talk to them when I'm down. I don't have alot of friends that I can really open up to when I need to, and even though I have some, I don't want to have come to them every single time I want to talk which is like every couple of days.

 

Does anybody else feel this? Has anyone else here been through this before? What did you do to break it? How do you find excitement in such a boring, painful, tedious life?

Wow, did you pick the wrong place to ask for someone to care.

  On 8/27/2009 at 12:14 AM, OneToThirtySix said:

 

Wow, did you pick the wrong place to ask for someone to care.

I knew what I would probably be in for.

Regardless, quite a few people did care enough to post their thoughts so I don't see what the problem was

  On 8/27/2009 at 12:16 AM, thehauntingsoul said:

I knew what I would probably be in for.

 

 

Regardless, quite a few people did care enough to post their thoughts so I don't see what the problem was

I'm really impressed this thread made it to page two, actually.

:hi5: