have you ever felt like

any second the world could tear open into infinite dimensions and your body would be ripped apart because music this good simply shouldn't exist

HAHAHAHAHA FUCK YEAH

HAVEN'T TAKEN MY MEDS IN THREE DAYS I FEEL FUCKING AWESOME

i'll go back on them tomorrow. it's always nice to take a little detour into those constantly lurking delusions of grandiosity

for real though the song i'm working on right now is really exciting to me. whole new direction, fucking sick. i'll post it in this thread for you guys to tell me how horrible it is later tonight, for now i'm going to enjoy this spiritual experience

it feels like a sin to make this track

What drugs are you taking and why?

i'm calming down now

i take abilify and prozac for various reasons

probably don't need them

i called it ya!

high energy dance music. can't wait to play this live at the peak of my set

http://soundcloud.com/sunnydayhighway/ya

"Oh I just don't know where to begin..."

is that a lenny kravits sample?

I'm not feeling it here.

But you clearly are, & that's the important thing.

  On 4/17/2010 at 7:49 AM, vamos scorcho said:

i'm calming down now

 

i take abilify and prozac for various reasons

 

probably don't need them

 

i called it ya!

 

high energy dance music. can't wait to play this live at the peak of my set

 

http://soundcloud.com/sunnydayhighway/ya

as we all know from watching The Soproanos, prozac takes a few weeks to build up effective levels in the blood. you can't start/quit for three days and expect it to work like a lightswitch

  On 4/17/2010 at 1:24 PM, slightlydrybeans said:

is that a lenny kravits sample?

i thought it was elvis costello

  On 4/17/2010 at 4:36 PM, Rabid said:

  On 4/17/2010 at 1:24 PM, slightlydrybeans said:

is that a lenny kravits sample?

i thought it was elvis costello

  On 4/17/2010 at 8:08 AM, scones to die for said:

"Oh I just don't know where to begin..."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K8JkB-OR7H4

been listening to imperial bedroom constantly. costello is the best melody writer i can think of, next to tchaikovsky and such

i listened to YA! and liked it but this should perhaps be in YLC

lol my friend said this song sounds like the sneaker pimps.

  On 4/17/2010 at 7:49 AM, vamos scorcho said:

i'm calming down now

 

i take abilify and prozac for various reasons

 

i was on abilify for schizophrenia. i stopped taking it two months

before xmas and on xmas night i was really fucked and felt like shit.

the night before right while i was laying in my bed before i dozed off

i was staring into the darkness in my bedroom and i started seeing

alien like purple shapes like crazy. then on xmas night i was paranoid

as fuck (i think this xmas was on a weekend) and a voice was talling me

to lay on my back feeling like i was about to leave my body and while i was

rubbing my head that felt like mush i took a clonazepam mellowed out then...

i woke up the next morning to take a piss and my dick was way thicker than

usual.

abilify is hell. i'm on zyprexa now and i'm making music more than ever.

living my life and able to walk around walmart without feeling scared to shit.

stay away from geodon too, risperdal oral and especially the injections

and seroquel. all those drugs ruin your life like it seems like you'll be

that way forever. the majority of them cause temporary parkinsons which i took

a drug for the tremors/parkinsons for that i can't remember.

and the dreams become nitemares too and i've hardly ever dreamed of anything

of shit that would make you value your life.

to sum it all up, FUCK DRUGS IF YOU'RE A TEEN AND WANT TO ENJOY YOUR LIFE LATER ON IN LIFE.

work and learn hobbies.

all the best to you friend.

diznam. Thats crazy man. Sorry to hear that you have such heavy things to deal with.

I'm very lucky and shouldn't be the whiney bitch I am.

  On 4/18/2010 at 1:02 AM, sonny said:

  On 4/17/2010 at 7:49 AM, vamos scorcho said:

i'm calming down now

 

i take abilify and prozac for various reasons

 

 

i was on abilify for schizophrenia. i stopped taking it two months

before xmas and on xmas night i was really fucked and felt like shit.

the night before right while i was laying in my bed before i dozed off

i was staring into the darkness in my bedroom and i started seeing

alien like purple shapes like crazy. then on xmas night i was paranoid

as fuck (i think this xmas was on a weekend) and a voice was talling me

to lay on my back feeling like i was about to leave my body and while i was

rubbing my head that felt like mush i took a clonazepam mellowed out then...

i woke up the next morning to take a piss and my dick was way thicker than

usual.

 

abilify is hell. i'm on zyprexa now and i'm making music more than ever.

living my life and able to walk around walmart without feeling scared to shit.

 

stay away from geodon too, risperdal oral and especially the injections

and seroquel. all those drugs ruin your life like it seems like you'll be

that way forever. the majority of them cause temporary parkinsons which i took

a drug for the tremors/parkinsons for that i can't remember.

and the dreams become nitemares too and i've hardly ever dreamed of anything

of shit that would make you value your life.

 

to sum it all up, FUCK DRUGS IF YOU'RE A TEEN AND WANT TO ENJOY YOUR LIFE LATER ON IN LIFE.

work and learn hobbies.

 

all the best to you friend.

i typed a lot but i really enjoy sharing this side of my life with anyone i don't know, so here goes"

shit man. i've been on risperdal, seroquel, and zyprexa too. this is my second time back on abilify because of side effects from the other ones. it's not doing much but it's still better this way as opposed to going without it.

when i was taking seroquel i had that same experience of seeing shapes in the dark, completely overtaking my vision and pummeling me from all sides. also they gave me the worst night terrors imaginable, for many nights i would wake up screaming for my mom (at age 19) and also would get sleep paralysis very often in the middle of the night w/ auditory hallucinations. seroquel is FUCKING BULLSHIT. i also heard a voice, once in my life when i wasn't on anything.

i'm actually on these drugs for a disorder they call "delusional depression" or "major depression with psychotic symptoms" but i've also been diagnosed bipolar. i don't believe i'm bipolar when i see other people who have also been diagnosed. i also have serious, horrible social anxiety to the point where i can only call it "insanity" or being off my fucking rocker half the time (edit: really shouldn't call myself insane but you know what i mean... sometimes it's like that ravel piece, bolero), some of the things that go through my mind in a standard conversation and the maps of small meaningless connected together in menacing ways things gets ridiculous.

but i've learned to accept it and in a way, cherish it. there are plusses to being paranoid, SOMETIMES, don't take that the wrong way. i guess you are keyed into something that most people disregard completely or are unaware of. unfortunately a lot of the time that thing is completely false.

zyprexa made me gain like 50-60 pounds so watch out for that.

i have to say, these drugs make it possible for me to go out into public without thinking horrible thoughts and like you said to walk around walmart without excessive mental pain. life still is a challenge, but i'm much more equipped to face it and actually quite happy to. fuck all that bad shit, we can beat it, easily. that's what i say. good luck to you too.

  On 4/17/2010 at 4:26 PM, hahathhat said:

  On 4/17/2010 at 7:49 AM, vamos scorcho said:

i'm calming down now

 

i take abilify and prozac for various reasons

 

probably don't need them

 

i called it ya!

 

high energy dance music. can't wait to play this live at the peak of my set

 

http://soundcloud.com/sunnydayhighway/ya

 

as we all know from watching The Soproanos, prozac takes a few weeks to build up effective levels in the blood. you can't start/quit for three days and expect it to work like a lightswitch

false, i've heard people say this especially coming from a clinical perspective but try taking 1 prozac pill yourself and come back to me and tell you don't feel relatively fucked up and a huge consciousness shift within 2-3 hours of ingestion. I cant say its a positive experience but it's has a very strong effect pretty instantaneously.

  On 4/21/2010 at 3:11 AM, vamos scorcho said:

 

 

zyprexa made me gain like 50-60 pounds so watch out for that.

 

i have to say, these drugs make it possible for me to go out into public without thinking horrible thoughts and like you said to walk around walmart without excessive mental pain. life still is a challenge, but i'm much more equipped to face it and actually quite happy to. fuck all that bad shit, we can beat it, easily. that's what i say. good luck to you too.

Zyprexa was prescribed for me after a 72 hour hold and it was probably one of the most hardcore sedatives i've ever taken, stronger than Ambien and Xanax . I guess it can help certain people but it definitely didn't help me, just made me ridiculously tired.

yeah all those antipsychotics will knock you out prettttty hardcore like.

and then for about 5 weeks of taking it you wake up absolutely drugged and swamped in the brain, slow moving

it goes away after a while but it definitely sucks, and it even happens at low doses

i took like 50 mg of seroquel which is really low, some people take up to like 800 in the morning and 800 and night, which i can't even comprehend. i'm guessing those are the people that you generally view as being basically mentally handicapped

but yeah 50 pretty much destroyed me nightly, hated that

abilify is better, zyprexa was similar to seroquel but not as bad at all

its really, really hard to tell if they're actually helping. prozac at least i do feel as though i can tell that it's helping in some areas but the antipsychotics sort of box me in emotionally which i don't like. i was on lithium for a while too - and a very high dose, and that was fucked up.

doctors seem to prescribe this stuff pretty haphazardly ya know? it's weird, and something i could talk about at great length

this one time i was making a song, and i thought it was soo good that i assumed that if people heard it, there would no longer be starving kids in Africa, i later found out that my friend had slipped me some meth

That track is kind of annoying.

  On 4/20/2010 at 7:44 PM, slightlydrybeans said:

diznam. Thats crazy man. Sorry to hear that you have such heavy things to deal with.

I'm very lucky and shouldn't be the whiney bitch I am.

one of the most sad things a voice i heard said 'he won't live that long'

and now i'm trying my ass off to have music mastered by a pro. and am about

to constantly thinking about giving some 40 tracks away up for download.

i've been smoking a pack of marlboro 72's a day for the past 3 weeks and

although my shrink says the voices are not real, but all the times they've

said things seem real.

either the zyprexa is starting to work for me, or things that happen the

way they do is deja vu/coincidence that i'm starting to realise. and i pray.

Kinda sounds like something Terminal 11 would make minus all the distorted bass and plus 240bpm breaks edits.

checked out terminal 11. very cool stuff

  On 4/22/2010 at 4:57 AM, vamos scorcho said:

checked out terminal 11. very cool stuff