Guest happycase Posted September 17, 2010 Report Share Posted September 17, 2010 and i feel like either decision is a step into an abyss. i've been living in monasteries and meditation centers for the past 10 months of my life. it's been wonderful and i still love it here. it's easy as hell, i get paid nicely, i'm in solitude, and have really incredible coworkers who are into the same as i. i haven't really been able to function well in society for the past few years. i feel like i'm clinging to this place because i'm losing it. i put in a 2 month notice, but don't think i want to leave. i hate having to relate to so many different people. it's utterly overwhelming. and i don't want a real job. but i also feel like i'm avoiding important aspects of myself that need integration - i feel that with my new perspective and heightened self-awareness getting mixed up in relationships again would be really rewarding. i see society as a sort of bonus stage that i get to step into. if it were the whole game i'd kill myself. but it's nice to go pick stuff up. but damn, i don't do anything here and i don't know if i am capable of flowing with the rest of the world. i get to sit around and contemplate my body and feelings and the walls and nature all day. my job involves walking around a rainforest and stocking toilet paper. anyway, society. i think this might be a wonderful time in my life to engage that. i think my perspective and awareness on many levels are in a state of becoming fresher. i worry however that this positive movement will stop when i leave the proper environment. i suppose i don't trust my internal processes to hold up as i reallocate all this energy to the different pace and the different rules. Quote Link to comment https://forum.watmm.com/topic/59772-i-need-help-understanding-this-decision/ Share on other sites More sharing options...
lumpenprol Posted September 18, 2010 Report Share Posted September 18, 2010 join us. we need your meat. Thanks Haha Confused Sad Facepalm Burger Farnsworth Big Brain Like × Quote Hide lumpenprol's signature Hide all signatures After this I listened to geogaddi and I didn't like it, I was quite vomitting at some tracks, I realized they were too crazy for my ears, they took too much acid to play music I stupidly thought (cliché of psyché music) But I knew this album was a kind of big forest where I just wasn't able to go inside. - lost cloud I was in US tjis summer, and eat in KFC. FUCK That's the worst thing i've ever eaten. The flesh simply doesn't cleave to the bones. Battery ferming. And then, foie gras is banned from NY state, because it's considered as ill-treat. IT'S NOT. KFC is tourist ill-treat. YOU POISONERS! Two hours after being to KFC, i stopped in a amsih little town barf all that KFC shit out. Nice work! So i hope this woman is not like kfc chicken, otherwise she'll be pulled to pieces. -organized confused project Link to comment https://forum.watmm.com/topic/59772-i-need-help-understanding-this-decision/#findComment-1417896 Share on other sites More sharing options...
chassis Posted September 18, 2010 Report Share Posted September 18, 2010 :L Thanks Haha Confused Sad Facepalm Burger Farnsworth Big Brain Like × Quote Hide chassis's signature Hide all signatures Reveal hidden contents Link to comment https://forum.watmm.com/topic/59772-i-need-help-understanding-this-decision/#findComment-1417897 Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest tht tne Posted September 18, 2010 Report Share Posted September 18, 2010 wah Quote Link to comment https://forum.watmm.com/topic/59772-i-need-help-understanding-this-decision/#findComment-1417901 Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Ranky Redlof Posted September 18, 2010 Report Share Posted September 18, 2010 just take the lesser of the two evils then :p no seriously, sounds like you have some real issues just go with what your heart tells you, or talk about it with some good friends Quote Link to comment https://forum.watmm.com/topic/59772-i-need-help-understanding-this-decision/#findComment-1417922 Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ruiagnelo Posted September 18, 2010 Report Share Posted September 18, 2010 give society a chance. there is a place for you. as much as i find captivating the idea of having a secluded monastery life, i think it's something not compatible with the human essence. it's an extreme and ultimate way to take. polar bears, tigers, eagles and some other animals are meant to have a solitary life, but some others aren't. men is one of those. with time you will understand that is also possible to find a your own little monasteries within society, without denying it and abdicate relationships. and they can appear as a wide set of forms, ideas or even people, and in nature. you must have spent a lot of time meditating and i am sure you have measured the pros and cons several times and in every possible perspective. but you haven't tried it yet. Quote Link to comment https://forum.watmm.com/topic/59772-i-need-help-understanding-this-decision/#findComment-1417936 Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vergas buey Posted September 18, 2010 Report Share Posted September 18, 2010 Please stay where you are; you do not seem like you are capable of integrating into society on any meaningful level by the sound of this and previous posts. Please do not feel like you need to subject society to your obviously blighted and retarded worldview. There are already enough vamos scorchos, et's and tht tne's running free when in fact these people and yourself should be put to sleep. Thanks Haha Confused Sad Facepalm Burger Farnsworth Big Brain Like × Quote Link to comment https://forum.watmm.com/topic/59772-i-need-help-understanding-this-decision/#findComment-1417942 Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest tht tne Posted September 18, 2010 Report Share Posted September 18, 2010 On 9/18/2010 at 12:42 AM, vergas buey said: Please stay where you are; you do not seem like you are capable of integrating into society on any meaningful level by the sound of this and previous posts. Please do not feel like you need to subject society to your obviously blighted and retarded worldview. There are already enough vamos scorchos, et's and tht tne's running free when in fact these people and yourself should be put to sleep. whoa there! read the fucking rules! Quote Link to comment https://forum.watmm.com/topic/59772-i-need-help-understanding-this-decision/#findComment-1417944 Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hoodie Posted September 18, 2010 Report Share Posted September 18, 2010 On 9/18/2010 at 12:45 AM, tht tne said: On 9/18/2010 at 12:42 AM, vergas buey said: Please stay where you are; you do not seem like you are capable of integrating into society on any meaningful level by the sound of this and previous posts. Please do not feel like you need to subject society to your obviously blighted and retarded worldview. There are already enough vamos scorchos, et's and tht tne's running free when in fact these people and yourself should be put to sleep. whoa there! read the fucking rules! whatever bro, you obviously need to be put to sleep Thanks Haha Confused Sad Facepalm Burger Farnsworth Big Brain Like × Quote Link to comment https://forum.watmm.com/topic/59772-i-need-help-understanding-this-decision/#findComment-1417947 Share on other sites More sharing options...
karmakramer Posted September 18, 2010 Report Share Posted September 18, 2010 On 9/18/2010 at 12:42 AM, vergas buey said: Please stay where you are; you do not seem like you are capable of integrating into society on any meaningful level by the sound of this and previous posts. Please do not feel like you need to subject society to your obviously blighted and retarded worldview. There are already enough vamos scorchos, et's and tht tne's running free when in fact these people and yourself should be put to sleep. jesus stfu Thanks Haha Confused Sad Facepalm Burger Farnsworth Big Brain Like × Quote Link to comment https://forum.watmm.com/topic/59772-i-need-help-understanding-this-decision/#findComment-1417949 Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest tht tne Posted September 18, 2010 Report Share Posted September 18, 2010 On 9/18/2010 at 12:48 AM, Hoodie said: On 9/18/2010 at 12:45 AM, tht tne said: On 9/18/2010 at 12:42 AM, vergas buey said: Please stay where you are; you do not seem like you are capable of integrating into society on any meaningful level by the sound of this and previous posts. Please do not feel like you need to subject society to your obviously blighted and retarded worldview. There are already enough vamos scorchos, et's and tht tne's running free when in fact these people and yourself should be put to sleep. whoa there! read the fucking rules! whatever bro, you obviously need to be put to sleep i do feel a li'l nap comin' on Quote Link to comment https://forum.watmm.com/topic/59772-i-need-help-understanding-this-decision/#findComment-1417951 Share on other sites More sharing options...
data Posted September 18, 2010 Report Share Posted September 18, 2010 you should try it. Thanks Haha Confused Sad Facepalm Burger Farnsworth Big Brain Like × Quote Hide data's signature Hide all signatures twitterbandcampyoutube Link to comment https://forum.watmm.com/topic/59772-i-need-help-understanding-this-decision/#findComment-1417955 Share on other sites More sharing options...
sup Posted September 18, 2010 Report Share Posted September 18, 2010 dunno man thats 1 tough decision.....!!!! Thanks Haha Confused Sad Facepalm Burger Farnsworth Big Brain Like × Quote Link to comment https://forum.watmm.com/topic/59772-i-need-help-understanding-this-decision/#findComment-1418088 Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Lube Saibot Posted September 18, 2010 Report Share Posted September 18, 2010 *writes something to be able to keep track of this rolling fail in "my content"* Quote Link to comment https://forum.watmm.com/topic/59772-i-need-help-understanding-this-decision/#findComment-1418091 Share on other sites More sharing options...
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