i don't NEED anything...

i usually am saving up for something i want or there's something i need, but not now. i can't think of anything other than records... or good food... i guess this is good. i have reached some state of nirvana or something...

anybody feel like this too>?

Same here, but its not a good thing. I'm bored and depressed. I don't have any goals/plans to look forward to .. its fucking scary.

hmm :/

you could buy me things

  On 7/15/2012 at 8:33 AM, disparaissant said:

you could buy me things

*picks booger*...

I anticipate feeling this way when I pay off my student loans when I'm 73.

give money to charity and be happy with your life.

run out of things to get? do yoga and get flexible

  On 7/15/2012 at 8:07 AM, yek said:

i usually am saving up for something i want or there's something i need, but not now. i can't think of anything other than records... or good food... i guess this is good. i have reached some state of nirvana or something...

anybody feel like this too>?

Yeah me too, but I have to meditate regularly to feel that way. For me it has mostly been a matter of time and "free time". I don't differentiate much between working and the weekend. It is such a bother always striving for "free time". And when you have "free time", you're anxious to maximize the potential, so it becomes a battle of what enjoyable or productive things should be done until that inevitable depression on sunday evening. At least that's how I have behaved most of my life.

With money it's even worse, always worrying about what you don't have. Tinfoil hats always talk about bilderberg bullshit but this is the conspiracy, that you even need money to justify your existence beyond the necessities.

At work there are alot of people going on vacation now and some who aren't, and these guys who aren't are talking about NEXT year when they will have a few weeks of vacation, and it makes them terribly anxious. The thing is, when you become more aware of that stuff, how you put yourself in states of grief or happiness by your own volition, it's hard to believe that someone would voluntarily put themselves through that amount of grief by THINKING about it. And they're doing it in front of your eyes. I asked someone about this and he just said it was too hard not to think about it.

These days I have one goal, to be present and calm with whatever comes up. I recently had a very profound realization that every moment when I've felt uncomfortable or anxious, like I needed to be somewhere else, anywhere but here and now, have a beer, a spliff or just be back in bed, was not an accurate assessment but a knee-jerk reaction out of that anxious or delusional thinking, which can be dissolved in that very moment. The reaction produces the behaviour and the thought of "I need". When that is dissolved, there is actually a different "I" that doesn't need that takes its place. So the I becomes very flexible by virtue of letting go. This is very fun to play with.

And it is much easier than one would think, but people are afraid to do it because they fear they will go slightly mad, that they will not be able to control themselves by letting go so they might put themselves in worse situations by not being "on guard" so to speak, which is pure illusion. When you see through it, you don't lose your mind, you gain the ability to make it work for you rather than against you.

Write a novel.

  On 7/15/2012 at 1:24 PM, chimera slot mom said:

With money it's even worse, always worrying about what you don't have. Tinfoil hats always talk about bilderberg bullshit but this is the conspiracy, that you even need money to justify your existence beyond the necessities.

chimera dropping the truth-bombs

  On 7/15/2012 at 8:07 AM, yek said:

i usually am saving up for something i want or there's something i need, but not now. i can't think of anything other than records... or good food... i guess this is good. i have reached some state of nirvana or something...

anybody feel like this too>?

i started feeling like that maybe 7 or 8 years ago, and am still mostly like it. :)

  On 7/15/2012 at 8:24 AM, YO303 said:

Same here, but its not a good thing. I'm bored and depressed. I don't have any goals/plans to look forward to .. its fucking scary.

you can still make plans and have goals? and if you're bored then do something! preferably something you enjoy... or something creative. don't sit on your ass and get depressed. get outside. cook nice food. become a chef. write a novel (as somebody suggested earlier), write some tunes. etc. etc. etc.

good luck, Yek.

  On 7/15/2012 at 8:24 AM, YO303 said:

Same here, but its not a good thing. I'm bored and depressed. I don't have any goals/plans to look forward to .. its fucking sad.

The cure for boredom is

you make it all seem so simple... :(

while you make it all seem so complicated... ;)

lol this will lead nowhere...

bullshit...

I am honestly loving my life right now.

except for being bitter and alone.

put the money in the bank and save it for a rainy day? Or in a fund for a house?

I'd try charity. It'll likely make you happier than much else could. In fact, volunteer. Spend time saving up money so that you can help people in other places. It's something worth getting excited about.

  On 7/15/2012 at 1:24 PM, chimera slot mom said:

  On 7/15/2012 at 8:07 AM, yek said:

i usually am saving up for something i want or there's something i need, but not now. i can't think of anything other than records... or good food... i guess this is good. i have reached some state of nirvana or something...

anybody feel like this too>?

 

Yeah me too, but I have to meditate regularly to feel that way. For me it has mostly been a matter of time and "free time". I don't differentiate much between working and the weekend. It is such a bother always striving for "free time". And when you have "free time", you're anxious to maximize the potential, so it becomes a battle of what enjoyable or productive things should be done until that inevitable depression on sunday evening. At least that's how I have behaved most of my life.

 

With money it's even worse, always worrying about what you don't have. Tinfoil hats always talk about bilderberg bullshit but this is the conspiracy, that you even need money to justify your existence beyond the necessities.

 

At work there are alot of people going on vacation now and some who aren't, and these guys who aren't are talking about NEXT year when they will have a few weeks of vacation, and it makes them terribly anxious. The thing is, when you become more aware of that stuff, how you put yourself in states of grief or happiness by your own volition, it's hard to believe that someone would voluntarily put themselves through that amount of grief by THINKING about it. And they're doing it in front of your eyes. I asked someone about this and he just said it was too hard not to think about it.

 

i think every human motivation is an unconscious attempt to live in the present. Whether we know it or not. You can even be unhappy and be in the present. Earlier i was cleaning up wet catshit off my carpet and i can tell you it was all i was thinking about. Drugs, partying, spending money is an attempt of the mind l to forget time

I don't need anything...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rSWBuZws30g