I met the love of my life.

is moderat worth seeing live? i don't know if it's worth the 12.50

I might be going to that show. I'll be the judge of this.

My advice to you and your love is... remember these moments.

  assegai said:

I might be going to that show. I'll be the judge of this.

dude, you're going to the toronto show? let's meet up and have a drink and stuff

  chax said:

  assegai said:

I might be going to that show. I'll be the judge of this.

 

dude, you're going to the toronto show? let's meet up and have a drink and stuff

The NY show.

  277: 930-933 said:

Awww I'm happy for you, now you can finally be a real panoptimist instead of a panpessimist.

I think you might've slightly misinterpreted the meaning of my nizzame.

  Iain C said:

Oh man are you in for a shock.

Thinking ahead sucks.

  Chromatic said:

Proceed with caution, she could fuck you up quite considerably.

QUITE considerably. Read above response.

  Mr Salads said:

My advice to you and your love is... remember these moments.

That's the problem with it all.

I met mine too, don't listen to all the negative comments, and congrats.

  ms-dos said:

also, don't let her ruin IDM for you. play it safe and never play good music while you're enjoying her company. put on some christopher cross, ub-40, system of a down, whatever. if she stays with you through that, you'll know that she's hopelessly consumed with you (but also sort of an idiot with co-dependency issues).

 

i had a girl ruin SAW1 for me and i'm afraid i'll have to kill her before i can bear to listen to it again.

she could never ruin my love for my music.

  abusivegeorge said:

I met mine too, don't listen to all the negative comments, and congrats.

She could never?

lol

She will.

shit i totally want to go to that show, will let you know if i can.

  Pilcat said:

shit i totally want to go to that show, will let you know if i can.

do eet.

  Mr Salads said:

She could never?

 

lol

 

She will.

Only I can let her.

You will let her do whatever the hell she wants

yeah wow this thread is dripping with naivety.

kinda skimmed thru this thread you know because i'm a little bit drunk but i feel like this is a really good opporutinuty to explain my life and its relationship to idm.

when i was in highschool i was a miserable creative little prick that no one really understood which made me happy. i had music like aphex twin that i could listen to in my bed feeling like i was thinking on another level and appreciating what (actually was) a revolution in music in the mid 90s. it was really good timing.

i grew up a bit and went to college and enjoyed my music and i felt like i was connecting with some sort of movement, it all made so much sense to me and i was perfecly content letting that be the primary driving force in my life...

so i started making music. and i was making some decent tunes. decent enough to make me feel like i was doing my part in whatever was happening. granted i felt like i had miles to go, but at the same time i was pretty confident that i was going to travel those miles and really become a solid artist as an electronic musician. i'm not saying that i felt like i was going to be "important" but i had an audience through monotonik that was very nice and i felt like i could only improve from there

then i met this girl. this big-juicy lipped salvadoran girl, with the most gorgeouse brown eyes. perfect skin. petite little smart girl in medical school... with a real storied family history. she was something special. really motivated.

we fell in love. dont know how, but i'm lucky, because she is special. really special, like spectacular. i'm just a dude and for whatever reason the timing was right and we fell in love.

that was in 2005. i havent really made a song, or at least a decent song, since. it bothers me to no end, but on the other hand, this was my dream, to have the perfect relationship (which i have), so i cant complain. but creatively i suffer. i suffer soooo bad. i have nothing to say to this world anymore when it comes to music, writing, poetry, whatever.. and these were the things that I went to school for, that i was going to build my life around.. none of that happnes for me anymore. i cant say that it doesnt matter because it does, but i just dont feel it anymore. i cant take any of my artistic output seriously anymore because at the end of the day i'm wrapping my arms around the most amazing girl on the planet. basically i'm the luckiest guy i know so it becomes a fucked up scenario when i try to complain that my music or poetry isnt happening. i enjoyed very mild success as a musician but even more success as a poet and both have been utterly stagnant for two years now.

and i hate to think that these creative avenues could be reborn in my discontent with my life, but i think it's the only way.

anyway.... yikes. its a crazy thing. but this goes to anyone out there... what are we seeking, as artistst? we are seeking truth, and i think a lot of us are seeking love through truth, or truth through love, i dont know. so it's very likely that if you find true love, you might be done as an artist. your path to truth becomes a very domestic series of expressions of love for your lover, to the point that's all that's imporant. objectively that sucks as an artist, but i wouldnt' have it any other way because each night when i climb into bed and wrap my arms around my wife, and pull her close, i realize i've solved the problem that made me an artist in the first place.

anyway. there are nights when i sit here drinking, listening to tunes, trying to cling to the "unknown" of being on my own and being a single entity, and there are nights when i'd kill for the same sort of aritistc drive that i used to have when i was actually on my own as a soul, but really when it comes down to it, and when i measure out the causes and effects, what i have right now was and always will be my end goal, and so long as i have this, i will really never have any need to express myself like i used to. it's the ultimate give and take for me. on the one hand i think i could have made more differnce with my poetry and music, but on the other, i'm very happy and in love.

so yeah. love. it's not very idm at all is it? but i wouldnt trade it for the world.

nice post fred, i agree with all points except the salvadorian. my lady is not salvadorian. but the rest is true. end of.

yeah. i mean what can you do? it's like being pulled by an alien spaceship away from your comfort zone but the alien spaceship is mixing narcotics with its tractor beam.

so when i come here, i just have love anymore. like i just love you essines, that's pretty much it, it's all i have time for, is to love you.

see, i feel the same way and it's very comforting to realise that i'm not the only one who feels this way. i've been with my lady since about 2005 as well.

GOD DAMN.

*one love*

but i often vent the other side on watmm cause all a guy has time for in real life with his lady friend is love. so i gotta show the rest of it any place i can, and my dick-ness comes out on watmm.

DO YOU SEE WHAT HAPPENS?

ahhhh yeah i hear that too.

it's cool though, that's what i love about watmm, we are one collective beast of burden.

stick to your womens though. that's the right path.

  Fred McGriff said:

that was in 2005. i havent really made a song, or at least a decent song, since.

When was hard nights made?

the only post-2005 track was "seapen" ... there's actually a track on there from 99... the little guitar ditty i forget what it's called.... red h was from 03, forlon's diminish was 05 believe... yeah the ep was kind of a "release some old shit" kind of album

i'm just coasting right now. i want nothing more than to fucking sit here and make some 2009 beak. i wish i could make that happen somehow

  Fred McGriff said:

the only post-2005 track was "seapen" ... there's actually a track on there from 99... the little guitar ditty i forget what it's called.... red h was from 03, forlon's diminish was 05 believe... yeah the ep was kind of a "release some old shit" kind of album

 

i'm just coasting right now. i want nothing more than to fucking sit here and make some 2009 beak. i wish i could make that happen somehow

Seapen was actually my favorite so you in fact can make decent music while in love. Best of both worlds.

Fake Edit: Not making that up to be an ass kisser.

  countchocula said:

  Fred McGriff said:

the only post-2005 track was "seapen" ... there's actually a track on there from 99... the little guitar ditty i forget what it's called.... red h was from 03, forlon's diminish was 05 believe... yeah the ep was kind of a "release some old shit" kind of album

 

i'm just coasting right now. i want nothing more than to fucking sit here and make some 2009 beak. i wish i could make that happen somehow

 

Seapen was actually my favorite so you in fact can make decent music while in love. Best of both worlds.

 

Fake Edit: Not making that up to be an ass kisser.

well shit, thanks for that

i liked Essines' Hair even before i knew it was called Essines' hair.

and my gf loved the "Disposition" mspaint from way back in the day.

I'm too young to give up on those dreams. I had just barely begun my intimate em project. As soon as summer hits I'm doing it. She's interested so hopefully she'll encourage the idea. Plus she has summer school so I will find my time.

Besides, my only way to make it in the world is assimilating into professional society. I'd like writing to pay for my life and my expenses, however I dream of making good music and even writing good philosophy/literature. I wouldn't trade anything for this love but I can't accept giving up on what I'm going to school for. I have to bring my grades back up next semester and get everything back on track. I know she's down.

Thanks for all the words.