why does wine fuck me harder than vodka?

  ET said:

ive been a wino for the last 6-12 months. sometimes i go days/weeks without alcohol (rarely), and other times i go on mini binges of 2 bottles a night. this fucks me up hard. i usually cry. yesterday, i stayed up all night drinking wine, and in the end, i was sitting on the couch with my boyfriend crying about how i lost all my sight (my sight being, all my realizations that i had about god and consciousness, that i was posting about for a week or so a couple weeks ago)

Lol what a fucking nerd

why?

It was something to do with the way you were brought up I guess :undecided:

in vino veritas

  keltoi said:

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pwn

  Dr Clitterhaus said:

It was something to do with the way you were brought up I guess :undecided:

lool

  ET said:

you sound like you know exactly what this is like. what is it? how does it come and go...and like i asked, what is it?

I think it's something that's best interpreted by whoever is experiencing it first hand. It's not so much what "it" is that's important, but rather what it means to you, and what positive insight you take out of it. Maybe the people around you will also be affected in a positive way. Perhaps you went through a period where you felt this great benevolent presence all around you, felt connected as a part of the universe rather than a separate entity looking out at it... or something like that. Once you get that feeling of being totally connected with the world around you, you look at everyone else and feel as though it's your duty to make them aware that such a state is possible. What you seem to be going through is definitely very similar to what I went through, but it's ultimately your own personal journey, so I can't tell you what it is. That's for you to figure out (or to always wonder about --not a bad thing). As for how it comes and goes... it could be explained away simply as a symptom of mania or whatever classification a medical professional would put on it. But it can also be something deeper than that. It's something that can come about through the necessity to create something meaningful out of existence, especially when you're living in a society as absurd as our own. You seem to be on a quest to find "the truth", which is a huge part of it for a lot of people. Surely there's more than meets the eye, right? Well, my advice would be to never stop seeking. And if that great feeling of wholeness disappears, always remember that it was there, and it's something that will always be a part of you, buried though it may be at times.

Hope that helps in some way.