Mental Illness Megathread

Couldn’t find one, so here goes! Warning: talk could become candid and triggering. Proceed at your own risk.

 

Got a mental illness? What’s it like? Are you okay right now? What drugs are you on?

 

I have bipolar disorder and it’s pretty awful. I’ve been hospitalized 11 times for suicidal problems and even though I made it through college my life is sort of a mess in general. On the plus side I get a bunch of shit done when manic! Any other bipolar kidz in this zone?

 

If you’re in an emotional or suicidal crisis, please call your regional emergency line (911 in the US, 999 in the UK) or your regional suicide hotline (800-273-8255 in the US).

bipolar I

 

it's aight, I settled down in my late twenties.

 

yes, I'm okay

 

lithium

Diagnosed selective mutism, undiagnosed but suspected social phobia, social anxiety, or avoidant personality disorder

  On 6/5/2018 at 5:38 AM, Stickfigger said:

I am a very stable genius

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCN5Afgsi3EV9A2GbcA9XrtQ

I haven't been diagnosed with anything but I'm pretty fucked up.

I have this condition where I spend most of my time procrastinating.

  On 6/5/2018 at 7:07 AM, Gocab said:

I have this condition where I spend most of my time procrastinating.

I have had this for years, I recommend a good old dose of jbp ;)

 

jk, jk...

I'm a chronic masturbator

lol probably a little autistic but I'm honestly more coherent in real life than on this fucking place. It was probably shitty growing up though

 

also anxiety so I think I said it but some rambling on the site may be product of anxiety

 

kind of disorganized at times but might just be general BRAIN FOG I dunno

Im an ae fan

  On 6/5/2018 at 9:05 AM, MIXL2 said:

 

  On 6/5/2018 at 7:07 AM, Gocab said:

I have this condition where I spend most of my time procrastinating.

I have had this for years, I recommend a good old dose of jbp ;)

 

jk, jk...

Who knows, could be ADHD

I was diagnosed with dysthymia, I have an anxiety disorder that's been regulated, I was on every pill possible, I was admitted in the psychward for depression/suicidal thoughts a number of times.

I'm good now though. What helped for me was keeping productive, a regular sleep routine, exercise, and quitting drugs/alcohol.

  On 6/5/2018 at 6:22 AM, Candiru said:

I haven't been diagnosed with anything but I'm pretty fucked up.

Been depressed for probably about ten years. Feel occasional bursts of contentedness every few months that last maybe a couple of weeks before things go back to normal. Noticed as the years go on and especially in the last couple of years that my passion for pretty much everything has pretty much ebbed away to zero. Dreams and ambitions all but gone, can't feel enthusiastic about anything. Had therapy last year which was helpful to get me out of a really really bleak place now just kind of reset to feeling nothing rather than just feeling low. 

 

Then I decided to move away from everything I knew to start fresh, unsure so far whether it was a good idea or not. Feel pretty sure a major crisis is just around the corner, but who knows? In any case I think it's unfixable at this point. Oh well, could be worse. I'm not terrified of the outside world and I am able to socialise, but it's really really difficult to invest in anything or anyone long term. Some people are better alone and I think I'm one of those. I blame the messageboards, personally.

  On 6/5/2018 at 5:16 PM, Sadie said:

 

  On 6/5/2018 at 9:05 AM, MIXL2 said:

 

  On 6/5/2018 at 7:07 AM, Gocab said:

I have this condition where I spend most of my time procrastinating.

I have had this for years, I recommend a good old dose of jbp ;)

jk, jk...

Who knows, could be ADHD

setting up clear goals and focusing on how procrastination snowballs into me not reaching said goals really helped overcome this over the last few months.. I got lots of work left to do tho :)

mother's diagnosed bipolar. sister probably is but undiagnosed. dad is either manic/dep or bipolar but would never goto a shrink i doubt. i've ended up surprisingly stable somehow. mom did a good (great!) job raising me on her own through her depression. 

 

i just got that standard social anxiety and cynicism associated with idm fans. boredom/depression from a shitty dead end job that i'm way too comfortable at to ever leave. usually what helps me is to put my situation into perspective by thinking about how absolutely shitty most people have it than me. fwp

  On 6/5/2018 at 5:57 PM, paranerd said:

I was diagnosed with dysthymia, I have an anxiety disorder that's been regulated, I was on every pill possible, I was admitted in the psychward for depression/suicidal thoughts a number of times.

 

I'm good now though. What helped for me was keeping productive, a regular sleep routine, exercise, and quitting drugs/alcohol.

I was never officially diagnosed, but it seemed like I had all the symptoms of dysthymia for years, and it got worse earlier this year up until mid-April. As stupid as it sounds, regular exercise helps a ton.

  On 6/5/2018 at 6:28 PM, ambermonk said:

 

  On 6/5/2018 at 5:57 PM, paranerd said:

I was diagnosed with dysthymia, I have an anxiety disorder that's been regulated, I was on every pill possible, I was admitted in the psychward for depression/suicidal thoughts a number of times.

 

I'm good now though. What helped for me was keeping productive, a regular sleep routine, exercise, and quitting drugs/alcohol.

I was never officially diagnosed, but it seemed like I had all the symptoms of dysthymia for years, and it got worse earlier this year up until mid-April. As stupid as it sounds, regular exercise helps a ton.

 

 

It's not stupid at all! Exercise is incredible as a good mood enhancer. The physical pain minimizes the emotional pain, you get fit and you can have sex for longer!

  On 6/5/2018 at 6:20 PM, Obel said:

Feel pretty sure a major crisis is just around the corner, but who knows? In any case I think it's unfixable at this point. Oh well, could be worse.

This is awful man, I’ve been going on 9 years and it’s hard to see life getting any better. But I’ve heard it takes some people decades. Try not to give up if possible, but I know that’s a lot to ask.

 

Also I assume you know yourself so please be careful. When I think a crisis is around the corner, it is. What resources do you have to take care of a crisis?

I have pretty crippling anxiety, like every minute of my life. Kinda affects my motivation too but I keep a positive stance.

Edited June 5, 2018 by yek

diagnosed with tricyclic hypomania (form of depression), been on lamotrigine for a few years. feel pretty numb most of the time tbh.

 

obel: 100% with you. coulda written that post myself. especially the last sentence. 

  On 6/5/2018 at 10:00 PM, luke viia said:

diagnosed with tricyclic hypomania (form of depression), been on lamotrigine for a few years. feel pretty numb most of the time tbh.

 

obel: 100% with you. coulda written that post myself. especially the last sentence.

Interesting. I’m constantly emotionally fucked up (or like, half the time; bipolar, so the other half is fine) but I’m super extroverted. I do stand up comedy so I’m around people all the time.

 

I was actually low key in crisis when I wrote this thread. I was hospitalized twice in the past month or so and should have been hospitalized a third time but didn’t wanna go back. It’s quite literally been the worst and hardest time of my entire life. I’m actually applying for social security disability at the moment.

I hope things smooth out for you, Sadie. It's good to see you back, btw.

 

I should clarify, I suppose, that 'tricyclic hypomania' is simply what my physician diagnosed. Basically, without meds, my mind periodically races into a negative spiral, but physically I feel unmotivated at best, paralyzed at worst. Generally all I could do was to lay down and try to sleep it off - the episodes were usually over by the time I woke up. 

Edited June 5, 2018 by luke viia

There's no way I can put the whole truth about myself here and hit the post button without deleting it, which I do about 90% of the time when I post on a message board. 

 

I will confess something.  I was prescribed Haldol as a teenager.  It made me a zombie and sucked the creativity out of me.  I took the entire bottle and I had a string of seizures and almost died.  So they took me off of it and never followed up.  After a near fatal accident a decade ago I now yearn to find the silver-lining in everything I encounter.  That's as good as it can get from my perspective.  

 

Obel, I moved far away and started fresh.  I also can't see ever having a long-term friendship or relationship with someone.  I am content and find happiness alone.  You aren't alone in those aspects.  And the majority of people will not understand this reasoning.  Another truth might be that I am barely holding on to my grasp of reality.

 

I am not going to delete this, here goes

Just regular anxiety and depression for me. I've never taken any meds for them but I did see a therapist for quite a few years and I do keep a fairly rigorous self-care schedule of fitness, meditation, yoga, and CBT to keep it in check. It does get bad sometimes and manifests some elements of paranoia (I get ideas that everyone secretly hates me so I distance myself from people occasionally).

 

***Most importantly I have a spouse who understands and goes through the same things (though they are worse for her) and supports and helps me when she can. This makes a huge difference.***

 

For those that think they should go it alone, I would say try to find groups or friends that understand or are in similar situations. Human contact and support helps immensely. I know somewhat cultural traditions can impede this, but do try imho.

 

You are all welcome to PM me if you need.