stupid first world problems you're dealing with

Sorry, my post was in poor taste, shouldn't have been so blunt.

I woke up with a nasty migraine again this morning and couldn't see, vision was all blurry. Doctor says my blood pressure is really really high and that this is possibly the reason but I'm still going for blood tests just in case.

Years and years of drinking and the worst problem was my liver, now I stop drinking and get all the nasty after effects eh?

Anyways thanks for the support everyone I'll report back when I get the blood work done. Cancer doesn't run in my family or anything, but it's best to rule it out.

  On 2/9/2015 at 8:37 PM, StephenG said:

Sorry, my post was in poor taste, shouldn't have been so blunt.

 

I woke up with a nasty migraine again this morning and couldn't see, vision was all blurry. Doctor says my blood pressure is really really high and that this is possibly the reason but I'm still going for blood tests just in case.

 

Years and years of drinking and the worst problem was my liver, now I stop drinking and get all the nasty after effects eh?

 

Anyways thanks for the support everyone I'll report back when I get the blood work done. Cancer doesn't run in my family or anything, but it's best to rule it out.

Almost deffo not a tumour, don't worry about it unless you know for sure. It's most likely a "just incase" situation. I know a couple of people who were sent for scans by doctors after having weird headaches, all of which turned out to be fairly conventional migraines or cluster headaches - still nasty stuff, but treatable and not life-threatening.

I very confuse, toomah or no?

returning momentarily to your regularly scheduled programming of paltry, inconsequential, vain first-world problems:

ever had one of those situations where you've agreed to buy a certain good or service, and the seller agrees to sell it to you, and at the last minute after all's been settled it turns out you've accidentally been sold something different but kinda the same, and it's too late/not worth the time/money/effort to do anything about it, and you're just standing there with your hands in the air like what the fuck?

now I have a Diablo Corsa rear tyre on my bike instead of the (stock) Diablo Rosso-2 I wanted. the Corsa is an excellent tyre, great grip and performance. I, however, prioritise long-distance touring over track racing, and so the better-performing but quicker-degrading Corsa is not exactly what I wanted. plus now I have a mismatched set of the Corsa on the rear and a Rosso-2 on the front, which isn't a big problem as they're comparable and both Pirellis, but it definitely changes the handling of the bike. and it sets off latent OCD.

I'm fucking irritated. a considerable part of it is being irritated at being irritated.

Damn, today I'm sad. But this time is a special kind of sadness. It hurts, but it kinda feels already normal. Like, I actually know why I feel like this, and how I (actually) tried to avoid it but still, I can't "change" or "act more normal". Maybe I'm mentally ill?

  On 2/10/2015 at 4:48 AM, usagi said:

I very confuse, toomah or no?

I have bloodwork and a scan tomorrow. Will let you know if toomah or no.

  On 2/10/2015 at 5:04 AM, logakght said:

Damn, today I'm sad. But this time is a special kind of sadness. It hurts, but it kinda feels already normal. Like, I actually know why I feel like this, and how I (actually) tried to avoid it but still, I can't "change" or "act more normal". Maybe I'm mentally ill?

After now having read your posts for years, I'm reasonably certain you possess the power to get over this melancholy sad-sack thing you seem to slip into so often. (Apologies if any of this comes off harsh; it is coming from a place of compassion). I wouldn't say this to anyone with these sorts of comments, but over time I have come to believe your issue is one of primarily self-confidence and willpower (or rather, a lack of them), among other issues. I could be entirely wrong, of course. But I have noticed that most often your complaints of sadness are extremely vague, and filled with self-doubt and an implicit request for reassurance. Have you seen a therapist, one who you can be honest with and who you trust? If not, find one. You really seem to need a proper outlet for this stuff. Many times I've noticed you'll project this sadness onto some vague issue outside yourself, like "the world sucks" or something. While I know those feelings, I cannot take them seriously, and I do not think you should either. These may be issues stemming from a larger mental issue, or they may just be something you need to toughen up about - it's impossible to say from only forum posts. And I only say any of this because this is clearly something you have been dealing with for some time, and I cannot see it ending for you any time soon unless you take action and see someone who may be able to help you or get you some sort of medication. That, or you can continue to regularly fall into this useless misery. These are deeply personal issues, and I hope you can overcome them.

You may have some sort of depressive disorder, or you may just need a swift kick in the pants. Find someone you can trust to give you both medical and emotional advice; I suspect you will discover quite a bit about yourself as you look into this. The only wrong approach is to do nothing and continue to feel bad and to project sadness onto others. That creates misery for them as well as for you, and it does indeed place a burden on those close to you. Not to sound dire, but that is the sort of thing that can slowly drive large wedges into relationships, and I suspect these moods will only feed back into themselves to give you more trouble in the future if you do not proactively do something about it. I'm not sure how much your moods actually bother you IRL, but I am coming at this with only your online posts as context. I may be taking it more seriously than necessary. Either way, be well, dude.

And Stephen, I hope you're alright, man. My thoughts are with ya.

My FWP: I do not have the time or the drive to continue to have the same climate change debates each and every year. I cannot understand people who suspect there is an international conspiracy of otherwise entirely reputable scientists trying to "get government money" for their climate research, or people who believe climate scientists are such bumbling dummies that they all misinterpret their own data over the span decades...and mysteriously all come to the same general conclusion. I just. don't. get it. That is such a far-fetched cockamamie conspiracy it would make Lyndon LaRouches followers raise an eyebrow.

  On 2/10/2015 at 5:07 AM, StephenG said:

 

  On 2/10/2015 at 4:48 AM, usagi said:

I very confuse, toomah or no?

I have bloodwork and a scan tomorrow. Will let you know if toomah or no.

 

fingers crossed.

  On 2/10/2015 at 5:43 AM, luke viia said:

My FWP: I do not have the time or the drive to continue to have the same climate change debates each and every year. I cannot understand people who suspect there is an international conspiracy of otherwise entirely reputable scientists trying to "get government money" for their climate research, or people who believe climate scientists are such bumbling dummies that they all misinterpret their own data over the span decades...and mysteriously all come to the same general conclusion. I just. don't. get it. That is such a far-fetched cockamamie conspiracy it would make Lyndon LaRouches followers raise an eyebrow.

the amazing thing though is that it's not just dumb people who fall into this trap. the climate change conspiracy theorist camp includes intelligent, educated people as well, including my sometimes-boss, who has a pure math degree, is a stats expert, and is one of the most technically capable people I've ever met in a professional capacity.

  On 2/10/2015 at 5:36 AM, luke viia said:

 

  On 2/10/2015 at 5:04 AM, logakght said:

Damn, today I'm sad. But this time is a special kind of sadness. It hurts, but it kinda feels already normal. Like, I actually know why I feel like this, and how I (actually) tried to avoid it but still, I can't "change" or "act more normal". Maybe I'm mentally ill?

 

After now having read your posts for years, I'm reasonably certain you possess the power to get over this melancholy sad-sack thing you seem to slip into so often. (Apologies if any of this comes off harsh; it is coming from a place of compassion). I wouldn't say this to anyone with these sorts of comments, but over time I have come to believe your issue is one of primarily self-confidence and willpower (or rather, a lack of them), among other issues. I could be entirely wrong, of course. But I have noticed that most often your complaints of sadness are extremely vague, and filled with self-doubt and an implicit request for reassurance. Have you seen a therapist, one who you can be honest with and who you trust? If not, find one. You really seem to need a proper outlet for this stuff. Many times I've noticed you'll project this sadness onto some vague issue outside yourself, like "the world sucks" or something. While I know those feelings, I cannot take them seriously, and I do not think you should either. These may be issues stemming from a larger mental issue, or they may just be something you need to toughen up about - it's impossible to say from only forum posts. And I only say any of this because this is clearly something you have been dealing with for some time, and I cannot see it ending for you any time soon unless you take action and see someone who may be able to help you or get you some sort of medication. That, or you can continue to regularly fall into this useless misery. These are deeply personal issues, and I hope you can overcome them.

 

You may have some sort of depressive disorder, or you may just need a swift kick in the pants. Find someone you can trust to give you both medical and emotional advice; I suspect you will discover quite a bit about yourself as you look into this. The only wrong approach is to do nothing and continue to feel bad and to project sadness onto others. That creates misery for them as well as for you, and it does indeed place a burden on those close to you. Not to sound dire, but that is the sort of thing that can slowly drive large wedges into relationships, and I suspect these moods will only feed back into themselves to give you more trouble in the future if you do not proactively do something about it. I'm not sure how much your moods actually bother you IRL, but I am coming at this with only your online posts as context. I may be taking it more seriously than necessary. Either way, be well, dude.

 

 

 

And Stephen, I hope you're alright, man. My thoughts are with ya.

 

Well, I didn't expected this kind of answer. Thank you so much, really. I'll try to explain my feels.

Basically, I feel lonely. But not lonely in the way of "omg I'm literally alone in the whole universe", no, but in the sense of that I can only make a "click" with very, very, very, VERY. few people (I only have 1 true friend right now (for me true=someone I can talk about my problems and stuff without shyness). I tend to have a really "dense" way of looking life (like, logical view instead of moral/superficial view), so most people gets scared or simply don't comprehend me.

If people think my statements are vague, well, absolutely all of them mean: I feel lonely. Please someone help me.

You say that I have the power to get over this, and guess what, I agree completely! In fact, I believe everyone have the power to change their lives for the good. I'm really optimistic about it, I even posted here a book I was reading about how to talk to people cuz I really want to "change" a bit for my own good. Also, I posted here too about how amazing 2014 was for me; I've been changing myself radically. While I was a child, I used to be so, so, so fucking shy, like, reaaaaally shy and quiet... In 2010 some stuff happened that made me think about it. So from it to 2014 I made stuff I didn't even thought I could do! Yes, lack of self confidence was/is a huuuge problem for me, but I really fought a lot to overcome it. I sometimes struggle, but I can certainly say I'm not as shy as I used to be. So yea, 2014 was amazing for me, personally and professionally, but then again, I had nobody to celebrate my achievements with. Yes, I have my family, but its not the same. One moment that actually depressed me a lot was when my cowriters (one of my achievements was to be a writer for a digital art festival (which you can see in my blog :) brought their friends, girl/boyfriends, etc to the final event... And surprise, I was the only one alone. Despite I actually invited some people, nobody went. And that's the shit that gets me, I know, I want to be more social, to enjoy life in a different way, but there's fucking something, I guess my bad luck! that fucking prevents it! Really! I know people create their own luck, and I try to create my own, but there are others circumstances I can't control at all. Also, I'm absolutely not the type of people that thinks "the world sucks", not at all; I know life is just life, neutral, each one of us are responsables of what we do with it, independently of our surroundings. I'm really thankful I'm not an african child (with respect), or having some sort of actual mental discapacity. I actually have a really good life, but then again, I have nobody to share my happiness with (apart from my friend). Also, apart from family and stuff, I feel nobody really cares about me :( even if I try to be more social and stuff, they either think I'm weird, or already got a social circle to laugh, love, etc. So yeah, the thing that really upsets me is: Despite trying and trying, despite really wanting to be more social, I still can't, I'm still the one who is left perfectly alone.

Yo, really, I just want to feel important to someone else.

And yeah, thanks for the advice about seeking professional help, but there's something inside me saying me that I can solve it, I just need to work through it. But I'll try it someday, maybe.

Also yes, Stephen, good luck.

No hot water this morning...

Damn Stephen, I hope it's just a case of stupid doctor rather than an actual tumor. Good luck!

no strawberry sundaes in the shop,,,,,,,,someone is lying,,,,,,just 1 more hit........i can handle it, lemme take the edge off,,,,,

Keep us posted Steve-O. Hope the doc is wrong about the tumor diagnosis.

cripes

there's a guy at work (another manager) who's causing problems for me by manipulating my already stressed boss.

as a result the boss is raining down all hell on me but giving more and more power to this other guy who is basically fucking everything up for me.

the irony is this guy probably wouldn't even be here if i'd raised a grievance against him for physically assaulting me at work a while ago.

  On 2/10/2015 at 5:43 AM, luke viia said:

My FWP: I do not have the time or the drive to continue to have the same climate change debates each and every year. I cannot understand people who suspect there is an international conspiracy of otherwise entirely reputable scientists trying to "get government money" for their climate research, or people who believe climate scientists are such bumbling dummies that they all misinterpret their own data over the span decades...and mysteriously all come to the same general conclusion. I just. don't. get it. That is such a far-fetched cockamamie conspiracy it would make Lyndon LaRouches followers raise an eyebrow.

Zizek talks about something that might help to explain this phenomenon (why people don't believe in climate change, even if they know it is happening)

[youtubehd]iGCfiv1xtoU[/youtubehd]

  On 2/10/2015 at 11:12 AM, IrisAndTheLens said:

there's a guy at work (another manager) who's causing problems for me by manipulating my already stressed boss.

 

as a result the boss is raining down all hell on me but giving more and more power to this other guy who is basically fucking everything up for me.

 

the irony is this guy probably wouldn't even be here if i'd raised a grievance against him for physically assaulting me at work a while ago.

This sounds awful. Could you talk to your boss about it or does he actually trust this guy more than he trusts you ?

This wonderful day keeps going with more bullshit from my boss. And I've noticed I keep gritting teeth without paying attention. I've been doing that for a week now I think. Hurts

  On 2/10/2015 at 12:50 PM, Perezvon said:

 

  On 2/10/2015 at 11:12 AM, IrisAndTheLens said:

there's a guy at work (another manager) who's causing problems for me by manipulating my already stressed boss.

 

as a result the boss is raining down all hell on me but giving more and more power to this other guy who is basically fucking everything up for me.

 

the irony is this guy probably wouldn't even be here if i'd raised a grievance against him for physically assaulting me at work a while ago.

 

This sounds awful. Could you talk to your boss about it or does he actually trust this guy more than he trusts you ?

 

 

This wonderful day keeps going with more bullshit from my boss. And I've noticed I keep gritting teeth without paying attention. I've been doing that for a week now I think. Hurts

 

basically yes, this guy is taking advantage of a pre-existing situation which is tension between myself and my boss. he's just aggravating it.

He assaulted you at work? What the fuck? Have you reported this? What happened?

Well, here are some more First World Work Problems:

I'm working on "something-something-I-can't-say-what-it-is-sound-design" at work.

I'm about to bust a fucking nut over this. Sure, I may have forgotten to add a tiny little fucking detail to some of the recordings, which would take about 1 minute to fix, but instead the client sends an email to my boss about it and wants a meeting about it. And it makes me look like the fucking sinner here.

My girlfriend walked in the door a couple of hours ago and this shit made me act like a negative asshole. I feel like an ass now.

EDIT: The meeting ended up being not so bad.

  On 2/10/2015 at 5:43 AM, luke viia said:

My FWP: I do not have the time or the drive to continue to have the same climate change debates each and every year. I cannot understand people who suspect there is an international conspiracy of otherwise entirely reputable scientists trying to "get government money" for their climate research, or people who believe climate scientists are such bumbling dummies that they all misinterpret their own data over the span decades...and mysteriously all come to the same general conclusion. I just. don't. get it. That is such a far-fetched cockamamie conspiracy it would make Lyndon LaRouches followers raise an eyebrow.

What makes me chuckle is that most of the dumbasses who comment on climate change news articles seem completely unaware of how a huge chunk of our knowledge of paleoclimate actually comes from the oil and gas industries. One of the most crucial pieces of evidence is the series of hyperthermals from the last ~200Ma, where sharp CO2 spikes driven by rare exceptional volcanic events tie in very closely with sharp temperature spikes, sharp changes to weather patterns and anoxia and dieoffs in the oceans. In terms of timescale and quantity of emissions, they approximate an anthropogenic emissions scenario. But we only know about that stuff because of oil and gas exploration. Ironic, you might say... But it also blows out of the water the bullshit idea that climate change is some sort of ivory tower scam. Fucktonnes of our understanding comes from scientists working in oil and gas. What possible incentive could they have for pushing climate change?

Doubly it kills the activist idea that oil and gas is some kind of evil industry staffed by science deniers... Nothing could be further from the truth (except for Exxon perhaps lawl)

PS sorry for bringing up a serious topic lol

  On 2/10/2015 at 2:34 PM, Squee said:

He assaulted you at work? What the fuck? Have you reported this? What happened?

basically he crushed me against a desk in my chair. with a normal person this may not be a big deal, but the guy's build like a brick shit house so it fucking hurt. i don't think he really meant to hurt me but he did (this is the only reason i didn't report it). but the guys been getting in my face ever since.

  On 2/10/2015 at 5:20 PM, IrisAndTheLens said:

 

  On 2/10/2015 at 2:34 PM, Squee said:

He assaulted you at work? What the fuck? Have you reported this? What happened?

 

basically he crushed me against a desk in my chair. with a normal person this may not be a big deal, but the guy's build like a brick shit house so it fucking hurt. i don't think he really meant to hurt me but he did (this is the only reason i didn't report it). but the guys been getting in my face ever since.

 

But he did it on purpose, right?

  On 2/10/2015 at 5:38 PM, Squee said:

 

  On 2/10/2015 at 5:20 PM, IrisAndTheLens said:

 

  On 2/10/2015 at 2:34 PM, Squee said:

He assaulted you at work? What the fuck? Have you reported this? What happened?

 

basically he crushed me against a desk in my chair. with a normal person this may not be a big deal, but the guy's build like a brick shit house so it fucking hurt. i don't think he really meant to hurt me but he did (this is the only reason i didn't report it). but the guys been getting in my face ever since.

 

 

But he did it on purpose, right?

yeah

You should without a doubt report him. Did anyone else see him do it? What a fucking prick.

  On 2/10/2015 at 6:05 PM, Squee said:

You should without a doubt report him. Did anyone else see him do it? What a fucking prick.

i didn't have any witnesses and there wasn't any bruising. it's a bit late now as it happened some time ago.