Your pointless thoughts & observations

It's becoming more and more clear that I should have been diagnosed with ADD ages ago.

https://tonetta777.bandcamp.com/track/drug-on-the-market

tonetta's still around apparently + still releasing music on a daily basis by the looks of it

  On 1/30/2021 at 7:00 PM, ambermonke said:

I'm legit considering shopping for a jump rope. I've missed too many gym days lately, so I'm opting for a backup cardio regimen at home for days I end up not going.

the lockdown is still going strong here (no pun intended) so the gym hasn't been open since october. i've taken to going to the park & doing bench press with an old steel pipe & a couple of truck tires. on days when it's above -5 I go jogging (if it's below that i do cold exposure therapy, today i went out in minus -18 wearing shorts & a sweat shirt). and at least 45 minutes of yoga a day

i miss gym 

  On 1/31/2021 at 9:14 PM, Braintree said:

It's becoming more and more clear that I should have been diagnosed with ADD ages ago.

I was trying to find a good ADD online test to take yesterday, then got distracted and forgot about it.  That might read as an ADD joke, but it also happened.

I've always found it mental that the medicine for ADHD is literally speed. I got hooked on it in uni for a few weeks, I was a fucking machine. 12 hours practice a day, 2 hours excersize, almost no sleep for 3 weeks. Then I had had heart palpitations so bad I thought it was all over for me and never took it again. I was taking 2 dexamphetamine a day too, the guy who gave it to me who actually needed it was prescribed 8. 8 fucking speed tablets day.

lol that's fucking nuts.

  On 1/31/2021 at 9:14 PM, Braintree said:

It's becoming more and more clear that I should have been diagnosed with ADD ages ago.

I was prescribed ritalin back when I was 9 or 10 because at the time it was seen as some kind of mental impairment. I'm sure my "symptoms" are still obvious here to this day, but I do think we gain more self-control with age. In fact I'd argue that the internet as a whole has served as an outlet for many of us "patients" over the years. And quite frankly, if ADD didn't exist life would be a lot more boring.

  On 1/31/2021 at 10:11 PM, Zephyr_Nova said:

I was trying to find a good ADD online test to take yesterday, then got distracted and forgot about it.  That might read as an ADD joke, but it also happened.

Those tests are nothing more than "do you have symptoms of ADD?"

Also, I think I'm the only person in my generation who doesn't have ADHD.  I don't know anybody else below the age of 30 who can sit still and read a book all day long.

It's quite concerning, honestly.  Snapchatbrains.

my brain was like that long before snap chat.  I wouldn't dare participate in whatever that is.

But I can also stay focused on minute details of a mix for hours on end, so... I sway between total mental disarray and hyper focus.

Finishing boox sux when I can't talk about it with anyone because they haven't and won't read the book, and I can't go through and explain all the nuance that an entire book has.  All I have are the internet and other boox, and the occasional geezer I meet who's actually read Gravity's Rainbow.

  On 1/31/2021 at 5:52 AM, drillkicker said:

I've seen so many old Japanese movies that I've come to expect at least one rape scene per movie I watch.

Is that why you keep coming back to them? But I guess that's between you and God.

  On 2/1/2021 at 1:27 AM, dingformung said:

Is that why you keep coming back to them? But I guess that's between you and God.

I just like the Takemitsu soundtracks, okay ?

Seriously, though, old Japanese cinema is legit, but apparently rape was a really serious problem in Japan until the 1960s.

  On 2/1/2021 at 12:36 AM, drillkicker said:

Finishing boox sux when I can't talk about it with anyone because they haven't and won't read the book, and I can't go through and explain all the nuance that an entire book has.  All I have are the internet and other boox, and the occasional geezer I meet who's actually read Gravity's Rainbow.

I’ll definitely deny having read any book if my friend wants to go through and explain all the detail that an entire book has. 

Every time I play around with my Korg Minilogue XD I manage to come up with some badass sounds. Dunno why I don't use it more often.

I'm going to my first ever AA meeting tomorrow.  I have no idea what to expect.

Seems for Christmas and my birthday people always get me dark chocolate... I really quite dislike it, including my stomach because I'm semi- lactose intolerant. I don't want to complain though and I end up eating it, just slowly.

  On 2/2/2021 at 1:45 AM, toaoaoad said:

Way to go! Go in with an open mind, and listen for the similarities not the differences. 

Someone in here was trash talking the program the other day, can't remember where or who but it was one of those guys who seems to be unhappy about everything all the time lol. There are a lot of misconceptions about the program out there, usually perpetuated by people who have never needed it themselves. I think this person was saying that it's "unscientific" lol. Just bear in mind that it has worked for millions of people across the entire world for nearly a hundred years. So I'm not sure what a scientific study would prove that isn't already proven by that: it works. There will be assholes, and there might be some people who try to tell you what to do. Some of them might be right. Look for the people who seem to be living a good life because a lot of it has to do with living by example. Good luck to you and remember it's one day at a time. 

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My new favorite WATMMER award right here.

  On 2/2/2021 at 1:45 AM, toaoaoad said:

Way to go! Go in with an open mind, and listen for the similarities not the differences. 

Someone in here was trash talking the program the other day, can't remember where or who but it was one of those guys who seems to be unhappy about everything all the time lol. There are a lot of misconceptions about the program out there, usually perpetuated by people who have never needed it themselves. I think this person was saying that it's "unscientific" lol. Just bear in mind that it has worked for millions of people across the entire world for nearly a hundred years. So I'm not sure what a scientific study would prove that isn't already proven by that: it works. There will be assholes, and there might be some people who try to tell you what to do. Some of them might be right. Look for the people who seem to be living a good life because a lot of it has to do with living by example. Good luck to you and remember it's one day at a time. 

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Thanks for the advice and encouragement.  For the record, I don't think I'm an alcoholic and I'm not "joining" the program, I've just been drinking too much to cope with boredom and loneliness and want to scale it down significantly.  I won't be motivated to do that unless I deal with the loneliness.  Also I have a very close friend who's an alcoholic and has lapsed from the program, so I'm joining her and we'll be there together.

The other problem is that alcohol has been the central aspect of my social life for the majority of my adult life, and that's a little concerning.  I have a friend now who never acquired a taste for alcohol and hanging out with him is a new experience.

@toaoaoad

My friend and I are actually travelling a bit to go to the only AA group that's meeting in person right now.  We both can't stand the digital socialization shit like Zoom.  Real, in person interactions are indispensable, and it's worth it to wear a mask.

I went to a couple meetings with my ex since she was an addict. A lot of people are very aware of the christian undertone but find it helpful. A lot of people that are alcoholics/addicts have problems with anxiety and depression and self medicate. Being part of a community and talking to other people that are suffering tends to be a lot of help for people with mental health problems.

I've been to one AA and one NA meeting and even though it wasn't for me it was pretty clear that you could interpret the spiritual part entirely as you see fit and that it is a tool used to try and deal with something most programs leave unaddressed. Pretty sure it's the most effective treatment program there is. 

Good luck, drillkicker!

  On 2/2/2021 at 1:45 AM, toaoaoad said:

I think this person was saying that it's "unscientific" lol

The person just said that the idea that alcoholism is an incurable disease that you can only tackle but never heal is unscientific, and that this idea despite being unscientific is used in the therapy, not that AA doesn't work for some people. I'm just paraphrasing, not saying whether I agree or not.

  On 2/2/2021 at 3:47 AM, drillkicker said:

For the record, I don't think I'm an alcoholic and I'm not "joining" the program, I've just been drinking too much to cope with boredom and loneliness and want to scale it down significantly.  I won't be motivated to do that unless I deal with the loneliness.

Simply being with a bunch of random people won't fix your loneliness, though. Maybe your boredom, temporarily.

I'd probably prefer actual therapy over some religious bullshit if I was seriously addicted to alcohol. Historically AA developed out of a fundamentalist Christian sect. There must be secular programs that use scientific/psychological insights for treatment and keep ideology and religious indoctrination out of it. But do what you want and feel is best for you, maybe it's entertaining or even helpful for you.

no idea why people are arguing about american airlines in here

American Airlines gives out complimentary wine too - would avoid.