Your pointless thoughts & observations

was paul mccartney a secret drexciya member?

  On 7/2/2023 at 4:42 PM, Hugh Mughnus said:

Nice! Was hoping you’d go and it wouldn’t be too bad. Man mine is coming up in… 3 or 4 years now?

Did you run into anyone you might stay connected with or reconnect with a bit?

Yeah there's a few I'm still connected with on FB but haven't seen since the previous reunion in 2013. It's kinda weird to see one dude gone mostly gray and one girl with wrinkles on her face, yet there was one couple who look like they haven't aged since I last met them.

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The inside of a cheese grater looks like the backdrop to most music videos around 2000

john de lancie (Q on TNG) only has 2 videos uploaded on his official youtube page. 
one of them is a graduation speech he gave for "secular students". the other is a documentary about (the extremely unexpected) adult fans of my little pony. 

not sure how i feel about this

reflexively killed a cute little jumping spider earlier and I still feel bad

my heart keeps breaking for the homeless folks that live on my block. some of them I only see once, but there's one woman that sleeps under the awning of a hair salon across the street and I've given her a pillow a few times now (she kindly returns it to my stoop in the morning) and she always asks for food, and I do what I can to oblige, but I'm broke too, eating rice and noodles and whatever just to get by. I couldn't get her what she wanted tonight but she accepted what I had, and managed to smile when I said goodnight. god, I feel like crying. people pass my place all the time just straight mean-mugging not only the homeless people but me as well, and I just don't get it. I don't know how to help. there are some basic services around here for people in distress, but not nearly enough. I'm so tired. 

  On 7/7/2023 at 9:32 AM, luke viia said:

my heart keeps breaking for the homeless folks that live on my block. some of them I only see once, but there's one woman that sleeps under the awning of a hair salon across the street and I've given her a pillow a few times now (she kindly returns it to my stoop in the morning) and she always asks for food, and I do what I can to oblige, but I'm broke too, eating rice and noodles and whatever just to get by. I couldn't get her what she wanted tonight but she accepted what I had, and managed to smile when I said goodnight. god, I feel like crying. people pass my place all the time just straight mean-mugging not only the homeless people but me as well, and I just don't get it. I don't know how to help. there are some basic services around here for people in distress, but not nearly enough. I'm so tired. 

may be you could alert one of those services about the situation or ask for guidance? ...any food banks in your area, which can help you out? 

I really, really need to go to bed…

  On 7/7/2023 at 10:23 AM, iococoi said:

may be you could alert one of those services about the situation or ask for guidance? ...any food banks in your area, which can help you out? 

yar, I have had to call the services (one of which is 911, for better or worse) to get help for some of these people. one lady was hallucinating so bad she was repeatedly punching herself in the head while screaming "I don't fucking care" and then passing out on the hot sidewalk (kicking her legs spasmodically - I don't like this comparison, but the closest thing I can think of is the way dogs kick when they have nightmares). called 911 that time so that they knew she was in distress and to treat it as a mental health issue (I wasn't the first caller). didn't dare tell dispatch that she was black, even though they directly asked. I have a friend that works at the city's housing authority and she is a great resource for knowing who to call, as well as just a fantastically compassionate person generally. very grateful for that. there are food banks around, but they all have different requirements and they don't really have ready-to-eat foodstuffs, so idk if that'd help the homeless much... also most of them don't ask for food, just that one particular woman.

tonight there's a guy out there swaying in place making vroom-vroom sounds and raising his heels like he's on a motorcycle. maybe reliving glory days, idk. he scared a black cat away from the bus stop, causing it to cross my path instead. thanks buddy. he's just left now, having waddled away looking like Willem Dafoe in The Lighthouse. Was listening to this on my headphones as I watched him. 

edit: just gonna add how weird it is to watch people walk past the man I described as if he doesn't exist, like literally just not even noticing. that said, I didn't approach him either; I don't think there was anything I could do to help this guy, he was truly in his own world, so I kinda get it...

guess I'll also add I had dinner with some old (as in, both former & elderly) neighbors tonight and they had friends over - some middle aged couple from Portland. I brought up homelessness quietly at one corner of the table (because it was relevant to the person I was speaking to) and the wife of the couple heard me and quickly changed the subject; minutes later she told a story about their house (which is now worth "well over $1 million" apparently) and how a homeless man fell asleep one night outside "OUR flower bed!" ... I could have puked. ugh. 

realized I'm a bit too close to making a point to be posting in this thread - so here's a quite literally aimless/pointless observation in the same vein: 

it's surreal to shift my gaze between the moon and these struggling humans. the meaning of the moment shifts drastically depending on where I focus; not even a slight head movement required for a full philosophical replacement

I finally understand authecre! yay

I think it was M4 Lema... I was pretty stoned lying in bed last night and this is otherworldly! this music doesn't flow vertically or horizontally, this is a teseract alien beign... it's there, morphing eternally... the setting was perfect, this kind of music is not to be skimmed trough just like I used to do... very excited about going trough their music discography... only album I used to listen back in the day was Incunabula and their style's been changing a lot since then...

  On 7/8/2023 at 10:29 AM, luke viia said:

just gonna add how weird it is to watch people walk past the man I described as if he doesn't exist, like literally just not even noticing. that said, I didn't approach him either; I don't think there was anything I could do to help this guy, he was truly in his own world, so I kinda get it.

Most people are afraid they will confront them with the crazies and then what. Or that they get aggressive.

Atleast i am i don't want to get beat up by a guy who thinks he is a motorcycle.

Make no mistake, motorcycle men will always win in a fight.

  On 7/8/2023 at 9:47 PM, Wunderbar said:

i don't want to get beat up by a guy who thinks he is a motorcycle.

lol

I think he was sleepwalking actually, and he was withered and old, motor beast or not.

would have been an easy fight to win, basically just one move: 

I have been making music for  a while yet i have never actually made anything i think is good. I find it really weird how making music leaves me frustrated and it takes a lot out of me yet i keep going back to it ?

Anyone else like this ?

  On 7/9/2023 at 7:25 PM, Wunderbar said:

I have been making music for  a while yet i have never actually made anything i think is good. I find it really weird how making music leaves me frustrated and it takes a lot out of me yet i keep going back to it ?

Anyone else like this ?

been there done that... same words, fucking frustration... can see everything in my head but to put it on paper never fuckin' mind... I stopped going back to it... it wasn't doing me any good... still can't make peace with myself... one thing that saved me was starting to listen to a lot of non-electronic music...

  On 7/9/2023 at 7:25 PM, Wunderbar said:

I have been making music for  a while yet i have never actually made anything i think is good. I find it really weird how making music leaves me frustrated and it takes a lot out of me yet i keep going back to it ?

Anyone else like this ?

I've technically been doing the same on and off for about the last quarter-century. I think my latest stuff from the last two years has been overall satisfactory, but I'm not nearly as prolific as I used to be. I guess the motivation just isn't there lately.

Maybe it's the realization that there's no way I can make a viable career out of it this day in age, despite the experience. Had I started in like the late 80s or early 90s like some of the legendary Warp artists did with whom we're all familiar, that'd be a different story.

  On 7/9/2023 at 7:25 PM, Wunderbar said:

I have been making music for  a while yet i have never actually made anything i think is good. I find it really weird how making music leaves me frustrated and it takes a lot out of me yet i keep going back to it ?

Anyone else like this ?

Maybe try to focus on the things you like about making music and try not to be too critical about the end product. Or look at the end product and try to narrow on the things you like about it and refine those aspects. 

Agreed that it can be frustrating at times and you can't plan out a good session. Often times my best ideas come when I just have 30 min and I write some stuff down. But sometimes when I have 2 hours, nothing comes of it and I have to throw in the towel. 

Idk, I'm dealing with similar things and haven't been motivated lately to make stuff

  On 7/9/2023 at 7:25 PM, Wunderbar said:

I have been making music for  a while yet i have never actually made anything i think is good. I find it really weird how making music leaves me frustrated and it takes a lot out of me yet i keep going back to it ?

Anyone else like this ?

should probably ask yourself - what are you hoping to get out of this? like is the goal to create a track? or have fun with it as a hobby? p sure everyone on here that has tinkered with creating sounds has gone through the same frustrations you're talking about. I sure did a long time ago and gave up. sold /gave away all of it. a few years ago I decided to get back in, but this time with no expectations of creating a track, making an ep/album. just playing music for the fun of it as a hobby. because that's how it all started in the first place. jamming with friends in garages playing Metallica and Pearl Jam covers...maybe try not to always record every thing and just let it flow? I do a few 10-30 min jams throughout the day and am good. creativity outlet or something. but hey that's just my take on it. 

  On 7/9/2023 at 7:25 PM, Wunderbar said:

I have been making music for  a while yet i have never actually made anything i think is good. I find it really weird how making music leaves me frustrated and it takes a lot out of me yet i keep going back to it ?

Anyone else like this ?

I really like the quotes by Rick Rubin. He recently said that music is not done for the fans or for yourself but more as a gift to what ever supernatural being or thing you believe in. Also that music is more about magic and supernatural things than anything rational. 
 

i really like that way of thinking. 

I think it all just comes down to me being a phony.

This was really constructive lets do the same group session next week.

  On 7/10/2023 at 5:39 PM, o00o said:

I really like the quotes by Rick Rubin. He recently said that music is not done for the fans or for yourself but more as a gift to what ever supernatural being or thing you believe in. Also that music is more about magic and supernatural things than anything rational. 
 

i really like that way of thinking. 

"And i would like to able to continue

To let what is inside of me

Which is, which comes from all the music that i hear

I would like for that to come out

And it's like, it's not really me that's coming

The music's coming through me"

Never looked up who said it, but DJ Shadow sampled them

  On 7/10/2023 at 5:39 PM, o00o said:

I really like the quotes by Rick Rubin. He recently said that music is not done for the fans or for yourself but more as a gift to what ever supernatural being or thing you believe in. Also that music is more about magic and supernatural things than anything rational. 
 

i really like that way of thinking. 

I recently picked up Rick Rubin’s book, The Creative Act. I’m looking forward to reading it. 

  On 7/10/2023 at 11:31 PM, picklish2 said:

"it's not really me that's coming

The music's coming through me"