stupid first world problems you're dealing with

  On 2/21/2013 at 8:57 AM, StephenG said:

Maybe it's just seasonal affective disorder, I'm not sure.

feeling glum in the winter doesn't usually involve suicidal thoughts. go see someone and get some counselling!

I've been in pain for about 3 weeks now. It's my lower back. It comes and goes, good days and bad days, but right now it's pretty bad. I'm also having trouble pissing, finding it impossible to get the last few drops out and so effectively pissing my pants piecemeal every day as I dribble into my kecks each time.

Symptoms point to some kind of kidney infection but my piss tests negative for bacteria so it could be a couple of other things - kidney stones, prostatitis or god knows what else. Diagnostic progress has been painfully slow and it's really starting to stress me out.

I do not need this shit at 27 years old.

The same electronic night (called "uncomfortable beats") that rejected me a couple of months ago for not being "dark" enough, is putting a gig on for one of the more accessible (but still awesome) acts from the festival I played last weekend. The only difference I can see between his music and mine is that his stuff is slower and more closer to the "bass music" style that I have grown to despise lately (but still dance to when drunk). Just because my synths are colourful and my beats are fast and bouncy, doesn't mean I can't get down with the dark grooves! Besides, if your night is called "uncomfortable beats" and you mostly play dubstep or whatever, isn't someone like me going to make people uncomfortable? Thus giving the name some actual merit?

that is a terrible name.

Uncomfortable Beats: A Q&A with Dr Dre

Stephen -- stay positive duder! Sounds like chemical wackiness to me. Chill on the phenethylamines!

yeah Stephanie hang in there

I've completely been out of touch with time this week, seriously it didn't even occur to me that it's already Thursday until a few moments ago, despite knowing I should be looking for another job after being laid off, I've done absolutely nothing productive this week.

Hang in there StephenG! It sounds like you've got a very promising future ahead of you, so you should definitely stick around to see it out. Counseling's probably a good idea.

I'm drinking decaf coffee... and it's one of the best roasts I've ever had, damn it! Still, no caffeine? WTF's the point.

Also, hemorrhoid. Itchy. It's first world because I'm sitting on a microfibre couch.

Condolences to both disparaissant and StephenG, cancer scares and suicidal thoughts are horrifying stuff. I've only experienced the latter but I wish you both the best.

FWP: I want to install Wordpress on the new website I'm setting up, but I need to wait for a DNS update to recognise the new nameservers for the new host as the temporary domain doesn't work. Fuck you technology.

  On 2/21/2013 at 9:19 AM, StephenG said:

Sorry, I hope I wasn't being dramatic on you all... Cheers

I think quite a few of us on this forum have been there, unfortunately. Depression is so fucking unlush. If you need anything, just ask.

I'm not a doctor, obviously!, but you've been dealing with some neurological shit lately. AFAIK there is a correlation between epilepsy and other seizure disorders and depression. I know you have reasons for not going to a doctor, but it might help. If things start getting worse please go see someone.

  On 2/21/2013 at 8:57 AM, StephenG said:

Thanks everyone... I really appreciate it. I wish I could say what it is. It's so strange to have control over everything in my life except my own happiness!

 

Maybe it's just seasonal affective disorder, I'm not sure.

 

Really though, thank you. =)

dude, no one controls his or hers own happiness... try making other people happy, that would do... who said we're supposed to be happy, we're cursed with the gift of rationality, which makes it almost impossible to be happy... just look at said happy people around you, don't you feel their a little bit out of place, blind and detached??? maybe looking at things like i do, like a douche, thinking that everything around me is crazy and i'm right, maybe that helps...

you seem like a very intelligent guy and maybe you're just surrounded by retards...

keep up dude

I'm feeling a bit awkward reading this thread lately.

I mean, serious (non-fwp) things like cancer and depression right after posts about sharting and queefing.

Such a rollercoaster.

I have no problem with the serious posts of course, but I think they deserve a more serious thread. But that might become too heavy a thing I suppose. I don't know.

we all know a badly timed shart is considerably worse than cancer, lets be honest.

I'm still constantly tired. Been like this for months.

Just found out I have badly timed shart cancer.

I'm tempted to start a suicidal thoughts thread. They are kind of fascinating, which sometimes diminishes how horrible they are. Props for manning up and posting about it. International Depression Messageboard.

Shart Cancer lol.

How will that get operated on?

Bad time of year I am under the spell of suicidal thoughts panic attacks and curling up into a ball syndrome half quit my job spent all my money and didn't go in to earn anymore then I realised probably my imminent birthday is to blame for everything hurry up and make it stop without death pls life.

Fenton...Fenton....Jesus Christ, Fenton

I suffered from horrible panic attacks in my early 20s. 34 now and past the panic attacks, but I understand just how terrifying they can be. Unlikely as it may seem now, your feelings will change.

I have a birthday coming up soon too. Always hated them for some bizarre reason. It's just another day ....

My first world problem is that I'm worrying about how I will survive in retirement given that I'm 34 and have about 0 per cent chance of buying a house in this lifetime.

  On 2/21/2013 at 10:13 PM, StephenG said:

Shart Cancer lol.

 

How will that get operated on?

double down faecectomy

too much bass.

internets

heh

Gotta do sound for a show at a night club I've never been to in an hour, I'm already drunk + they're paying me in beer. It'll be fine.

  On 2/21/2013 at 7:50 PM, THIS IS MICHAEL JACKSON said:

 

  On 2/21/2013 at 8:57 AM, StephenG said:

Thanks everyone... I really appreciate it. I wish I could say what it is. It's so strange to have control over everything in my life except my own happiness!

 

Maybe it's just seasonal affective disorder, I'm not sure.

 

Really though, thank you. =)

dude, no one controls his or hers own happiness... try making other people happy, that would do... who said we're supposed to be happy, we're cursed with the gift of rationality, which makes it almost impossible to be happy... just look at said happy people around you, don't you feel their a little bit out of place, blind and detached??? maybe looking at things like i do, like a douche, thinking that everything around me is crazy and i'm right, maybe that helps...

 

you seem like a very intelligent guy and maybe you're just surrounded by retards...

 

keep up dude

  On 2/22/2013 at 6:05 AM, Zephyr_Nova said:

Gotta do sound for a show at a night club I've never been to in an hour, I'm already drunk + they're paying me in beer. It'll be fine.

I can't see a problem here.

The earphones I exchanged have done the same thing in both ears. It was like I was listening to elevator music but I kept them in my ears just to drown out the inane bullshit that people at a council run gym talk about. I think I'm going to get on the Philips live chat thing and moan for a while.