stupid first world problems you're dealing with

  On 8/2/2014 at 5:45 PM, usagi said:

got really high with friends/staff at a bar and said something that was received strangely by one of the newer girls. maybe it's just cos I'm still high and paranoid but I think she thinks I said something creepy when it was just an ambiguous sentence. what the fuck. her reaction was like I said something rapey. now I'm all weirded out.

Did you utter: "I'm going to forcibly jam my erect penis into your un-lubricated asshole."...? Yeah, cuz that sounds rapey.

Don't say that.

Tell us what you said so we can silently judge you.

Solution: more drugs

pot - feels good till you realise that you're paranoid.

pot - yet another of life's experiences that works out better for sociopaths.

  On 8/2/2014 at 11:39 PM, Bechuga said:

Solution: more drugs

I'm with the blue turd avatar on this one...

Anyone in the food service industry that preps a lot probably has a callus on the inside of their index finger somewhere from years of prep work(slicing produce, protein, or breads in a repeated fashion to produce large quantities of consistent product).

Well, I have been steadily procuring my callus for around 25 years now and it's a very durable hide like quality that I admire to myself. That is until last week, I helped a friend prep for a 2,000 person catering event where one of my jobs was to cook & dice 45 pounds of bacon. The next day it felt like there was a blister underneath my precious finger wallet, but there was no visual difference. Until today, my sacred callus had popped while I slept, and the new skin hiding beneath the leather blanket was already healed and ready to see the sunshine.

This is just a quiet ode to my callus, it has been a good couple decades my friend, and I will now only look forward to the future and beyond. My knife skills must not falter. A newer, sleeker, and more modernized callus must arise from the ashes of this misfortune.

The skin should be tougher in that zone now. After over 20 years of playing guitar i don't have calluses on my left fingertips anymore, nothing visible at any least. But the thickness of the skin is more than enough to protect that zone for hours of playing, without taking away some of the subtleness. It was strange years ago when it transitioned to this, but there you go. Lets hope that is what happens to you.

I don't normally get paranoid on mj, unless I feel the atmosphere is negative.

anyway, what I said was... ugh, long story.

we were next door for a bit hanging out in the kitchen of a restaurant after hours, and there were a lot of guys and only a few girls. we came back to the bar and this new girl who's just started working there remarked that it was creeping her out about all the guys. said that she knew it when she started rolling a cig and three other guys started doing the same, presumably as a pretense for going outside to smoke with her. I said yeah, that's gross. then I leaned in a little and said "did you do that on purpose to gauge the reaction?" meaning did she start rolling to see who else would, to judge the creep factor. she didn't respond and kind of shrank away, then eventually got up and went behind the bar.

wat

i don't think that there's anything to worry about. You were just too deep for her tiny little mind. Either that or she freaked out because you'd figured out her plan. Either way, she missed out. Maybe cause she was new she just felt uncomfortable and the pot din help.

  On 8/3/2014 at 1:51 AM, usagi said:

I don't normally get paranoid on mj, unless I feel the atmosphere is negative.

 

anyway, what I said was... ugh, long story.

 

we were next door for a bit hanging out in the kitchen of a restaurant after hours, and there were a lot of guys and only a few girls. we came back to the bar and this new girl who's just started working there remarked that it was creeping her out about all the guys. said that she knew it when she started rolling a cig and three other guys started doing the same, presumably as a pretense for going outside to smoke with her. I said yeah, that's gross. then I leaned in a little and said "did you do that on purpose to gauge the reaction?" meaning did she start rolling to see who else would, to judge the creep factor. she didn't respond and kind of shrank away, then eventually got up and went behind the bar.

 

wat

If she's that sensitive then is it even worth the effort?!

I don't know, the whole thing is retarded. but it seemed like everyone else was acting like I said something wrong so I was like, wtf. maybe it came across like I was suggesting she was trying to get attention? #rapeculture

I think she's lesbanian btw.

  On 8/3/2014 at 1:02 AM, delet... said:

The skin should be tougher in that zone now. After over 20 years of playing guitar i don't have calluses on my left fingertips anymore, nothing visible at any least. But the thickness of the skin is more than enough to protect that zone for hours of playing, without taking away some of the subtleness. It was strange years ago when it transitioned to this, but there you go. Lets hope that is what happens to you.

You're right. It's wild to me, but the new skin underneath the blister is as hard as the old callus, but yet supple and flush against the rest of my finger.

  On 8/3/2014 at 2:07 AM, usagi said:

I don't know, the whole thing is retarded. but it seemed like everyone else was acting like I said something wrong so I was like, wtf. maybe it came across like I was suggesting she was trying to get attention? #rapeculture

 

I think she's lesbanian btw.

I don't think you were to blame there.

In America 'lesbanian' means 'challenge' to most men. Interesting fact.

I feel overweight and it's causing my clothes to feel tight, and might be a factor in my lower back pain. It's also making me too self-conscious to talk to cute chicks.
When I was about to wrap up my grocery shopping on the way home, a cute chick working at the unoccupied checkout was looking at me expectantly, but I still had one more thing to grab, so I felt like I inadvertently ditched her. Oh well.

I've lost a bunch of weight before in my teens. I already know how to do it. It's motivation to start again that's the greatest obstacle.

Blah blah boring boring, I know.

yeah, being porky sucks, can confirm. especially when you know that it's your fault. all you have to do is not eat anything very much besides veges and exercise all the time. heh. something something about not enough species of gut bacteria and having too long/efficient a digestive tract compared to thin people that would starve if only there was a famine.

It IS worth it to get on it and lose that weight, though I understand the lack of motivation to do it. I was a bit porky for so many years until last xmas,when I finally did something about it and am now 16 kilos / 33 pounds lighter (the amount of weight D'onfrio put on for Full Metal Jacket!).

The bummer: most of my clothes didn't fit any more :/

Word. Hopefully my next update will end up in the FWSs thread.

So I still have a SERIOUS big problem with mixing. Now I don't know why the fuck but when I'm mixing/composing in my laptop with earbuds (yeah, not the best (SONY XBA3) everything sounds good, but when I plug some speakers it suddenly sounds incredibly awful and like shit... Really, why?

1. don't mix using earbuds

  On 8/6/2014 at 3:57 AM, usagi said:

 

1. don't mix using earbuds
2. get better speakers/monitors
3. fuck her right in the pussy

 

well, yeah... I guess is the only way. Well, I'll use my earbuds (which sound good) for on the go and get some of those famous yellow monitors lel for home.

But really I'm amazed... Dude, wtf. A bass that sounds and feels "good" in my earbuds sound like fucking ass in my speakers (which are like 8 years old and obviously not for musix making) :(

speakers probably have no sub? can't really hear/feel any bass.

yeah, they don't...

Damn what a fucking bad feeling... It feels like everything I tried to do to mix properly went to shit suddenly...

I get very angry every time I see Mitch McConnell's face. I can't even rationalize it - it just makes me want to break all shit in the immediate vicinity and urinate on newspapers, then go stomping out windows of vintage cars and hijack a motorcycle for going on a trans-continental manhunt. Fuck that fuck.

Getting guitar finger calluses sucks. I rarely play nowadays, but I still have reduced touch-sense on my left hand. When I used to play for hours a day, I couldn't feel shit. And it made me think that I'm basically trading being a guitar virtuoso for never again being able to feel a woman's body with my left-hand fingers. That is a huge tradeoff.

I could very well be using too much strength, though. When I watch classical guitar player videos, they don't look like they're using any strength and have perfect posture and hand positioning. I guess I should stop playing like a punk/blues style, with basically a monkey grip.

Not really satisfied with my creative output because i keep comparing it to my favorite artists. Wish i could just make music that I'm proud of without knowing that theres always going to be something better